i cant write certain stuff in here b/c its about certain people who i know will read it. so nething not important will go into this jrnl. otherwise. gudluck finding the other one bye

my cousins off to boot camp and the war on weds. fuck

gone til the 17th. off to the shore. byee

o.m.g!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am soooooo inlove. its not funny hes soooooooo sweet and caring and considerate. so we went to see X Files today and it was in the last scene where they kiss and he looked at me and said "do u..." but i didnt let him finish. i just kissed him it didnt last long AT ALL but it was just OMG idek!. and the entire time during the movie he was stroking my arm and his face was right next to mine and he smelt soooooooo good. haha. thts all pCe

Ben hey, i can't really apologize. I really wanted to say good bye, I was going to kiss you...idk...I was in a hurry 2 get back, iw as worried my mom would like ground me.I turned around Iw as going to go back, but i wasn't sure what to do... It's totally lame, I don't think i'd be ok with it, but its true. i should have just done it earlier, but it was impossible with dan, etc.. doing ,w/e... Idk what to say, im sorry.

im so sick and tired of just waiting. just. fucking. waiting. thats all i do. i mean. he is my first bf. my first love. but its been 7 fucking months. MONTHS! not days. not hours. not minutes. MONTHS! and he hasnt even kissed me yet. i still believe that relationships arent all about the physical stuff, but come one. i want my first kiss. tonite, at the end of the party, i got up to go hug him goodbye, but u know what??? HE DIDNT EVEN SAY GOODBYE! he just walked out the door. just one large foot in front of the other. fuck this. fuck all of this.

xohaleyxo1992: kiss kellie =] thearcher132: ok thearcher132: ive been wantuing 2m just never felt right thearcher132: haha, + i got a random call from taylor i guess about it... xohaleyxo1992: haha xohaleyxo1992: not my fault lol xohaleyxo1992: but there couldnt b a wrong time to kiss ur gf haha thearcher132: lol, no