So I don't know if you guys have ever heard of Chiodos but if you haven't, they're amazing. Anyway, the other day I was listening to Is It Progression If A Cannibal Uses A Fork? and I was wondering if it was or not. So anyway, I went and asked three different teachers. A Communication Arts teacher, a World History teacher, and a Health teacher. The Health teacher said yes and the others said no. So I looked it up. Turns out it's only progression if the cannibals were to stop hunting and gathering and begin to farm. So cannibals will progress when they start farms where they grow people to eat. Pretty creepy, huh?

Ah, finally, school is almost over. I just have to make it through finals and then I am free. My last summer of freedom and I have nothing to do. My friends are either going somewhere on vacation, moving to go to college, or they have a job. Yeah, I need one but no one will hire me as I've complained about before. This journal has become my place to complain. I apologize. I don't mean to. It's better than complaining to people though. Oh well, I'm so tired today I don't even know what's going on. Has anyone ever heard of an outdoor graduation? Who does that? I went to a graduation for my cousin this weekend and it was outside. With no trees. In sunny, 80* weather. Yeah, I got burnt. A lot. So I haven't been sleeping. Not that that is anything new, but I was finally starting to sleep and now it's back to no sleep and lots of headaches. Fun stuff. I'm so grouchy today. I missed The Cure in concert yesterday. One of my friends went. I'm jealous. But mostly too tired to care. And my iPod died... Well, I'll go ahead and stop now. I'll write again when I'm in a better mood so I'm not just complaining the whole time. It's useless. I can't even form fully coherent sentences. Ah, so on a very depressing note... Dean's in Hell...(Supernatural. Ever seen it? You should watch it. It's good.) I have 'Wake Up' stuck in my head. Sorry Three Days Grace, I'm too tired to wake up. I wanna sleep. Well, I'm going to nap now.

Did you know that 13 was originally a lucky number? It originally meant luck and good fortune. But then again, so did the swastica. Oh, well. I tried. I've decided I pretty much love Guns N' Roses. I have Welcome to the Jungle stuck in my head. And Trapt finally came out with a new CD. They're gonna be at Rockfest! YAY! I can't wait. It's so funny, my mom is trying to think of reasons why I can't go. A few days ago she came up with a really original answer. "That music is satanic. It's satan music. It isn't healthy." Haha, yeah I thought people were done with that one but I guess some people like antiques. I loved the whole, 'If you play a record backwards Satan will speak to you.' Yeah, he was probably telling you that you're playing the record backwards. Idiots. Aw, I missed Avenged Sevenfold, Bullet for my Valentine, and Atreyu. It's so sad. Anyway, this weekend pretty much sucked. I went to a family graduation party thing and ended up serving drinks the entire time. So yeah, that was a blast! (

So I've been thinking (I know, never a good thing but I always end up doing it anyway) and I realized... no one is actually different. Because, everyone is unique and therefore, everyone is the same. Since everyone can be classified as one thing, unique, then no one is unique. The word unique means that there is no other. But there are others. Everyone. That's kinda depressing... Aliens are all just ice cream sandwiches... in pants? On a... different (haha) note, there is a play at my school tonight. It's some kind of Women Empowerment thing. Yeah, I mean, I think it's good to inform people about it, but how are they going to make a play about it? I don't get it. Although I'll probably end up going to it eventually. It's playing for several days. Apparently one of the principals got ahold of part of the script (the part about African women being circumcised) and said it was inappropriate so he insisted that he gets to read all of their material. He made a whole bunch of bullshit up about how it is all inappropriate and wanted them to call off the play (sexist, anyone?) but instead they agreed to censor the play. So tonight they are performing the uncensored one but they won't let anyone under 17 in. Yeah, they're stupid. It's not like they're showing us porn. They're informing people about abuse and sexism. And all the profits go to Synergy House (a shelter for abused women). People are stupid. I don't like them. Haha, just kidding. But they really are very dumb. I have Light My Fire (The Doors) stuck in my head! ...So I'm listening to shitloads of Cobra Starship to force it out of my head. Not that I don't like The Doors. I do. I just don't want that song stuck in my head. But it's better than I Think I Love You (Partridge Family). One Day, Robots Will Cry. I love that song! I think it might be my favorite Cobra Starship song. Oh, and A Perfect Circle. I've been listening to a lot of them. One of my friends' friends sang Passive at the school and she did an AMAZING job. Ever since I haven't been able to stop listening to them. Just let me ask you, hey, have you heard of my religion? It's called the Church of Hot Addiction. We believe that God has lust for everything. Cause now the time has come for your devotion, and you've already got the notion... Hmm... What else? I'm really bored so I don't want to stop writing but I don't really have anything else to say... Oh well, it's not like I have anything else to do but waste your time. Life's simple tasks are really only a defense against the fact that we die a little more every day. Look up Beelz by Stephen Lynch. And Superhero by ^ too. And Bring It (Snakes on a Plane) by Cobra Starship. Well it's actually a mix between the lead singers of Cobra Starship, Gym Class Heroes, The Academy Is..., Midtown, and The Sounds! Ii don't know the last two, but it's a pretty amazing song. I love it. Ok, I give up. I can't think of anything else. Not really, I'm sure I could if I really tried but Criminal Minds is almost on so I'm going to go watch it. It's an amazing show. You should watch it. Ok, talk to you all later.

Only 4 weeks of school left. So excited. You don't even know. All I have left to do is 'Romeo and Juliet' for 2 weeks and then finals. YAY! Well, that's just CA but whatever. I have one more unit in Geometry, World War II in World History, something I don't care about in Physics, and the Fitness unit in Health. Eww, I forgot, Tuesday we have to do the endurance run. Yeah, I may look like I'm in shape but I promise you, I'm just about the farthest thing from it. I can jog about two blocks before I keel over and die. Anyway, not much left to do and that makes me so happy. But I really don't want to do my Business Law II final. I suck at remembering all those legal terms. I'm only in that class because the teacher is awesome and I have to take a Personal Finance type class in order to graduate. What sucks is that they added a class called Personal Finance so now that I've taken two Business Law classes I'm still going to have to take a really annoying Personal Finance class. UGH! I hate school administrators. Haha, so that reminds me, our school hired some 'hall monitors' but I'm pretty sure they told the applicants that they were getting a job as a bouncer. Hahaha, they are these two HUGE guys that lean against the wall with their arms crossed and everything. It's great. And one of them is like all big and beefy but he has a really little face. It's like all scrunched together or something. It's so funny. We call him LittleFace because we don't know what his real name is. I love it. All I have to do is walk past him and I crack up and my day instantly brightens. Ah, LittleFace, if only you knew the relief from everyday stress you brought me. Anyway, that was kinda dumb, but oh well. Oh my god, I'm dying... I can't breathe. Somehow I managed to get a cold in the middle of SPRING! I mean what the hell! And just in time for the weekend, too. UGH!!! My friend is talking about starting up writing again. I'm happy or her. I guess she used to write a lot of short stories and stuff, but she stopped a while ago. From what I hear they were really good too. I'm so jealous. I always used to want to write, but I kinda suck at it. Like, yeah, I can write stuff in here but they're just my random thoughts on things that happened I can't seem to keep a story going. For the longest time I've wanted to be a writer. You know, like as my career. Then all I'd have to do is write a few bestsellers and I'd be free to do what I really love. Travel! I want to visit every major city in the world before I die. I think that'd be awesome. But anyway, back to my friend. I'm happy she's gonna start writing and all, but it's making me feel kinda insignificant. I mean, I used to love to draw and make things out of clay and stuff, but I wasn't any good. Not really, anyway. And she is in Art and is absolutely AMAZING. She drew a beautiful portrait of her friend recently, and it looks just like him. The face and everything is just perfect. So I was already incredibly jealous of her for that. Now don't think I'm being petty and ridiculous, you'd be jealous too if one of your best friends outshined you in every way possible. I mean she does all the things that I love, except that she's actually amazing at it. And she's very pretty, too. It's really starting to get to me. I want to start up drawing again but I know it'll look elementary and horrible compared to any of hers. And I've been trying to start up writing again but I can't even think of a story. All she does is look on the Internet for names she likes and then just starts writing. The stories just form around her characters. I can't do that. Not even close. I just wish I was that good at something. Anything. Pretty much the only thing that I've got on her is cooking. But I don't love that like I love Art. I mean yeah, baking is fun on occasion but it's not something I love that much. ARGH! I'm screwed... Ok I read back over that and it was very petty and ridiculous. Sorry, random breakdown. Moving on, I'm pretty much in love with Anne Rice's books. I love them. Vampires are amazing. Now, I'm not saying that in the fangirl, creepy, I-wish-I-had-a-vampire-for-a-boyfriend way, or in the I'm-a-cool-goth-because-I-have-a-vampire-fetish trendy way. I just think vampires are amazing creatures. I kinda hope they really do exist. Vampires like Louis who still have their human conscience and who think about things and use their unlimited time to learn. I'd love that. To be able to read every book in every library and still have time to spare. Or the more fantastical vampire that Stephenie Meyer writes into existence. Edward. Anyway, I should change the subject before I get too vampire fetish-y. Chocolate isn't everything, but it's close. I've been reading a lot lately. I'm starting to run out of books. I just finished Interview with the Vampire (Anne Rice) and all of Scott Westerfeld's books. (I LOVE them.) I'm currently reading A Great And Terrible Beauty (Libba Bray) which was recommended to me by a friend. I need more book suggestions... You should give me some. -SWITCH- I kick ass at the new Mario Kart game. The one for the Wii. Haha, hell yeah. I beat my friend's dad a whole bunch of times. I'm going back over to his house for a rematch sometime today. His dad warned me that he's 'been practicing!' Oh no. What will I do? Well I'm not gonna let an old man beat me. That's for sure! Hahahaha, just kidding. Well I'm gonna go play with Panda and then kick some Mario Kart ass! Talk to you people later. Or now. But probably later. Okay, see ya!