Yes! I got a ticket for Rockfest '08 and I finally get to go. I wanted to last year but my mother is overprotective and thinks people are going to force me to take drugs or something. I don't even know. But yeah, there are SO many of my friends that are going. It's going to be amazing. I can't wait. Chevelle, Shinedown, Another Animal, Red Line Chemistry, Stone Temple Pilots, and Saving Abel all live! And that's not even all of the bands. That's just a few. I'm so happy. My sister got me sick! I feel like crap. My throat is killing me, I have a headache, and EVERYTHING hurts! Thanks a lot sis. Ah well, I guess I'll get over it. Disturbed is coming with Slipknot!! I want to go so bad but since I can't get a job, I don't have the money for the tickets. It's so sad. I want to see Disturbed live SO bad! They are one of my favorite bands ever! They're so amazing. At least I get to see Chevelle live! YAY! I hate dentists. I had to go yesterday to get a tiny little filling. Yeah I think I might be allergic to the numbing stuff they use there. And he hit my nerve so it still hurts...really bad. But yeah, when they give me that shot I always end up not being able to breathe very well. It's like I'm really congested or something. I don't know but it really sucks. Let's see, other than that, I haven't really done much. This weekend I walked like 2 miles to go to QuikTrip because I wanted some Mt. Dew. Haha, yeah I'm pretty sure something is wrong with my brain. Um, what else...? Oh, Bones and House came back with new episodes... FINALLY. I missed them so much. It's hard to find a reason to be lazy without my shows on. And Supernatural is back too. Yay! I'm so glad my shows are coming back on. Oh, in physics today we watched 'The Day After Tomorrow' and had to take notes so me and my friend drew a picture of a bunch of people drowning and freezing and being attacked by tornados and giving advice on what to do it the world ends. So yeah, here is what you need to remember if that ever happens: 'Drowning is not healthy.' 'If the world is ending, bring your coat.' 'Windows do not protect you from tidal waves.' 'Running from tidal waves doesn't work out too well.' 'Hail is psycho; it'll kill you.' 'Hurricanes don't form over land... Unless the world is ending.' 'Gas freezes at -150 degrees ferenheit. Don't try to breathe frozen gas.' 'Wolves will eat you.' Yep, great advice don't you think? I liked it. Well, I think that's all I've got. Screw you guys, I'ma goin home. "Show me what it's like to dream in black and white so I can leave this world tonight." Unknown Soldier (Breaking Benjamin)

Hmm, yet another week of pointless schooling. I think I could do a better job of educating myself at home than this building full of underpaid, unenthusiastic, bored-out-of-their-minds, sick-of-children teachers can. I mean, yeah, some of them are really cool people, but I mean, what can they teach me that I can't figure out for myself at home. Maybe then I would get some sleep. I mean seriously, what makes them think that we're gonna remember anything at 7 am? It's freaking ridiculous. I'm sick of it and can't wait for summer and late mornings to come. Well, I think I'm done complaining. Although, I don't really have anything else to talk about. School is finally over on May 29. They added 3 days because of 'winter weather.' Yeah, they suck. But at least this morning they announced that those day will now be half days. Yay, I get to wake up at 6 am so that I can waste my time until 10 and then go back to bed. I hate people. At least that medication for narcolepsy is working... somewhat. I'm not half asleep all day anymore. I can actually wake up! Yay! But today, I don't know, I couldn't sleep last night so I ended up reading Interview With The Vampire (Anne Rice) all night and now I'm exhausted. The medicine is helping a little but I kinda have a headache and I really just don't want to be here. Panda, our ferret is adorable. She is vicious when she wants to be though. It's so cute. She's the sweetest little thing ever. My kitten likes to play with her and Panda charges Mea (the cat) and attacks her tail. It's so cute. I think Mea is starting to learn her lesson. When the ferret runs at her she jumps up onto the couch to escape. It's hilarious to watch them wrestle. We make sure neither one gets hurt for real of course. Sometimes we have to seperate them because Mea gets a little too rough. I love my crazy animals! Oh, so good news: I don't remember if I told you guys yet but I went in for an MRI because the sleep doctor thought it was weird that I had narcolepsy. But yeah, there is still no proof that there is something wrong with my brain. Now, I know, we all know there really is, but there's still no PROOF! Hell yeah! I win. God Must Hate Me (Simple Plan) is stuck in my head!!! So is I Think I Love You (Partridge Family). Wow, God MUST hate me... Haha, just kidding, I love that song. 'This morning I woke up with this feeling, I didn't know how to deal with, and so I just decided to myself, I'd hide it to myself and never talk about it, and didn't I go and shout it when you walked into the room: I THINK I LOVE YOU!'

Warning: This entry is going to be bitchy. I am writing it so that I can vent. Day of Silence: For those of you who don't know what this is, Day of Silence was originally observed because a boy in high school was afraid to come out and tell people he was gay. Well, one day he finally did and some of his classmates tied him to the flagpole and beat him to death. Day of Silence honors those who are too afraid to say anything as well as remembers those who have been killed for their beliefs. This is largely viewed as a 'Gay Pride' holiday, but if you ask me, I'd say it's about freedom of opinion. No one should ever have to die for their opinion or belief, even if I don't agree with it. Anyway, basically if you support Day of Silence, you don't speak a single word to anyone on that day (today). Technically, it is acceptable to speak to teachers to either explain your silence or answer a direct question, but most people don't. Okay, so today is the Day of Silence, right? Well, I support it. Wholeheartedly. And my mother? She hates it. She thinks that gay and bisexual people are demented, sick, and mentally ill. (Yeah, those are exact words she has used before.) Anyway, my problem is not with my mother who is close-minded and self-righteous. I don't blame her. I know it's just her religion telling her that. And, I guess, since she was raised to believe in this particular religion she has become almost brainwashed with it. Seriously, if they've mentioned a like or dislike of something at her church, her belief system instantly lines up with what they've said. It kind of scares me. It's like they really can brainwash people. Anyway, back to the main issue. I wanted to go to school (I know, weird, right?) and participate in the Day of Silence to show my support. Because, quite frankly, I don't care if I agree with someone's belief, I don't think they should EVER have to die for it. (Unless it's like a serial killer religion or something.) So yeah, the people at my school who wish to protest against Day of Silence stay home from school. And people who don't care, or are going to participate come to school. Well, my mother decided that, even though I want to participate and agree with it, she's going to USE ME to protest against it. Yeah, she MADE me stay home from school. So she's making it look like I am against this and it's stupid, because I strongly support it. It's not the staying home from school that I mind, it's the fact that she's USING ME SO SHE CAN PROTEST AGAINST SOMETHING I'M NOT AGAINST! Well, fuck her. So yeah, I'm going to try to not talk all day at home. That should piss her off. Happy Day of Silence everyone. (Is happy the right one?) On a happier note: I'm going to get a ferret today! YAY! Well, technically it'd be my sister's but she's going to college next all so I'll be taking care of her a lot. I love her. We were at this job fair yesterday, and got bored after finding NO jobs that we could work at (I have slightly eccentric hair color so mostly people just looked at me like I was joking about getting a job. I guess I need to dye it black or something before the end of school.) we wandered into an Exotic Pets Store and we were looking at the snakes (they are so cute!) and other reptiles (I love baby bearded dragons. Holy shit, they are ADORABLE) Anyway, eventually we made it around to the furry animals and my sister has always wanted a ferret. Well, I see this one sleeping all curled up and adorable and we ask to hold one. So my sister picks up this one that she thinks has the cutest personality. Yeah, she was wrong. So I hand her the one I was looking at and she was so sweet and cute. She doesn't bite except real gently, and she snuggles up in your arms. Anyway, me and my sister and my friend all fell completely and irrevocably in love with her. We named her Panda. And we're going to pick her up this later morning. I'm so happy!! "I disapprove of what you say, but I will defend to the death your right to say it." -Voltaire

So yep. I'm bored again. I'm in this computer class and we have to watch a 2 hour long biography on Bill Gates... Yeah, does it look like I give a fuck what Bill Gates did when he was four? I don't even care what he does NOW as long as my computer works I'm fine. And my computer has nothing to do with him. It's an Apple. So screw you biography about Bill Gates, I don't care. Wow, that was slightly pathetic. Anywhoser, on to more interesting stuff. Yeah, I got nothin'. Well, my friend brought a spiked Mountain Dew to school today and I didn't know so I took a drink. It was nasty. Whoever mixed it did a shit job of picking. But yeah, she'll be totally out of it by lunch so I'm probably gonna have to watch over her to make sure she doesn't get herself in trouble. 4/20 This weekend is 4/20. Happy National Pot Day! My friend's birthday is 4/20. We still have to figure out what we're doing. 4/20 is also Hitler's birthday. Did you know that? Yeah, people celebrate Hitler's birthday by getting high... Weird huh? It's also the birthday of a couple of serial killers. Pretty crazy, right? So I told my friend she's gonna end up going crazy. Of course, I think it might be too late. Just kidding. I love ya! So yeah, happy early psycoshit birthday, Kookie. Alrighty then. I think that might be all that I have to talk about. Oh yeah, and while I'm doing early happys. Happy Senior Skip Day! (actually that one's not early, it's today...) Happy Day of Silence (is happy the wrong thing to put in front of that?) and I think that's all the happys... Sorry if I missed one. FYI: MRIs are kinda fun. Haha, yeah, there's definately something wrong with my brain. Just kidding, there's no proof of that. Yet. Oh, well. Let's see. I'm bored, I have nothing to do, I still have an hour and 3 minutes left of that stupid movie. Yes, I have been counting. Just kidding, there's a clock on the computer. Jeez. Oh and my iPod is about to die so I have no source of music. Damn it! AAAHHH! I'm gonna die of boredness... This sucks. The stupid school has blocked every single gaming site, and the only site that they haven't blocked yet and that's not 'eduational' is songmeanings.net and crimelibrary.com. I don't really feel like reading about serial killers right now. Although, that's what I usually do when I'm bored out of my mind. Hey, I told you something's wrong with my brain. It's actually really interesting to read about. I was reading about Sweeney Todd the other day. Yeah, the demon barber of fleet street was real. But they never caught him and don't know what happened to him. Thus the legend was written as a horror story, which some playwrite turned into a musical, which has been performed for audiences for a really long time. Finally, Tim Burton got a hold of it and convinced Johnny Depp to sing. It was a pretty good movie. Anyway, the real guy did some pretty messed up things. And then there's Ed Gein, the guy that inspired both Buffalo Bill (in Silence of the Lambs) and Psycho. I guess I should stop this before someone freaks out. But yeah, if you're ever bored. Crime Library is a good source of derranged entertainment. Well, I wouldn't call it entertainment, I just don't know what else to call it. It'll hold your interest. Yeah, I guess that works. Moving on from the deranged killer topic, I need this block to END! Oh, no, just kidding. Next block is Health. We're gonna watch that nasty STD slideshow for like the fourth time. I hate that. It's like, come on, don't you think once is enough. I mean, how many times do you want to scar us for life? Seriously. That's just nasty. I think they might have a fetish or something. Why else would you want to show a bunch of kids (fine young adults. New let's all be politically correct!!) some diseased, half dead reproductive organs. Come on, guys. You've got to be kidding me. Every year, for five years? Just STOP! It's completely useless anyway. You think someone is just gonna up and stop having sex all of a sudden just because you showed them a picture? I mean, some don't even stop while they're PREGNANT. If that doesn't stop them, what will? Just give up. Well, that was a nasty little rant. Okay, I should stop now before it gets any worse. I guess I'll update you guys when I find out if there is evidence of something wrong with my brain. Or just any time I'm bored enough to write this again. Talk to you all later.

Well, I'm bored again. I want to go hang out with my friends at this theme park that's close by but I don't have the money and I can't get a ride to the bank... Sad day, man. Anyway, I think I'm done bitching now. Oh no, wait... Yeah, so I found out that I have narcolepsy. Isn't that about a bitch? Yeah, that's what I thought too, but it turns out that it has no effect on getting a drivers license and all I have to do is take this little pill every morning and POOF I'm awake. Well, as long as I eat regularly. Yeah, I found that out yesterday. If I don't eat regularly instead of waking me up this stupid little thing gives me the worst crash ever. Like a 6-energy-drinks-in-a-row crash on steroids. Yeah, it's crap. I almost passed out at my friend's house cause I didn't eat lunch at school and she's like 'Dude, you look dead. Are you okay?' It was bad... Anywhore, other than that I've been pretty bored and very uninteresting. I don't know why my people want to go to the theme park. It's freezing-pants over here. Hmm, I wonder, do my journals even make any sense? I just realized I use so many of my own version of slang it's gotta be nonsense to all you... Oh well. Maybe I should make a key to reading my journals one of these days... Nah, I'm too lazy. Looks like you guys'll just have to suffer. Sorry. But it's okay... you'll live. So hey, if any of you are bored and happen to have an AIM account you should talk to me. Or Yahoo!. I have that one too. Well, talk to me if'n you wanna. See ya. kels5369 (on both)

Okay, well I finally figured it out: Smokey Robinson wrote it FOR the Temptations to perform. But hey, thanks for ALL your help guys. Yeah, you guessed it (or maybe not...?) I was being sarcastic NO ONE HELPED! Aww, take a minute and feel sorry for me. I had to do my own work. How abusive. How could you guys let that happen? Just kidding. It wasn't too hard to figure out after all (turns out old people know more than we give them credit for! Shocker!) Just kidding again. So anyway, steering away from the My Girl talkings (is that a word?) I'm bored out of my mind. So I figured I'd torture you all with my thoughts. (Insert evil laugh) Wow, that sounded kinda like a was psychic or something... Nope, more like psycho but whatever it's close enough. Well, I think now's a good time for a pointless rant: I hate it when people write whole blogs or journals in 'TXT' speech. I DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS!! Like, yeah, I know the easy universal ones like 'lol' and 'brb' and 'g2g' you know but when people go all 'atm' or 'ffl' or something like that. Yeah, I have no idea. So seriously, if you're talking to me please, please, PLEASE speak English to me! -End rant- So anyway, I just had to get that out of my system. I STILL have Guilty Pleasure by Cobra Starship stuck in my head!! Save me!! But yeah today my favorite song would have to be The Approaching Curve by Rise Against. I've known that song forEVER but I just listened to it earlier and was like 'Why don't I listen to this more often? I LOVE it!' Yeah don't ask me. I don't know why either... That and Bedroom Talk by The Starting Line. Haha, oh well. Oh, and Wake up by Three Days Grace. Except that one I don't mind much at all. I love them! And Infra-red by Placebo. Yeah, being weird is like being a ninja, you just wouldn't understand.

Hey, so I'm gonna be lazy and just see if anyone knows the answer to this instead of actually researching it. Just kidding, I already researched it but I came up with so many different answers I don't know which is true. Well I guess I should explain: I have a communication Arts project that I'm doing on the song 'My Girl' by The Temptations. (It's a group project otherwise I would have chosen a better song like Chevelle or Breaking Benjamin) Anyway, it's my job to find out who was the ooriginal author of the song and I've looked EVERYWHERE and everywhere I look has a different answer. I've heard Kurt Cobain, Leadbelly (who the...?), The Temptations (they're the ARTISTS not the AUTHOR!!!), Smokey Robinson, Madness (again, ARTIST not AUTHOR), and Otis Redding. So yeah, if ANYONE can help me out PLEASE EMAIL ME: emmo2395@nkcsd.k12.mo.us -or- iluvchoco@sbcglobal.net -or- emmo4evr@gmail.com THANKS!

So I'm bored out of my mind again. Someone should entertain me or something... So for some reason I've been listening to a bunch of Cobra Starship lately. Yeah, they're pretty ridiculous but at least they're entertaining me... Unlike you! Just kidding. So I don't get it. If you're gonna post a journal why would you make it private. I mean seriously, if you don't want people to know about something just don't write it down... Oh, well. Wow, I just realized I always start my topics with "So..." How boring. I should get a new intro word... Hmm... Alrighty then, I guess I should post some of my personal belifs in this or something like everyone else does. Hmm... I don't know I'm not really that interesting of a person. Unless of course it's 5 in the morning and I'm starting to come down from a caffeine high. Then I get all philosophical. It's weird. But only around friends so you don't have to worry about it. Well, I may as well post some basic facts: -I'm a freshman in high school. -I think the people who make decisions at this particular school are very stupid. I mean seiously, who decides that it'd be a good idea to make the freshman have 'teams'?! It just makes everyone even MORE immature and abnoxious. -I think that I'm smarter than most people here... but not egotistically or annoyingly so. I don't correct people or force my beliefs on them. I just think that I think through things a little more maturely than others. I don't usually brag about it. But I figure none of you reading this will ever meet me so you have no reason to give a fuck. -I'm not very girly. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing but hey, at least you won't end up reading about me bitching about some guy or whatever. I think that's kinda weird. Okie-day, I think that's enough of a weird introduction to me. I think my favorite song by Cobra Starship would have to be either 'The City Is At War' or 'Guilty Pleasure.' I don't know. Those are the only two that I REALLY like... Although, 'My Moves Are White (White Hot, That Is)' is pretty entertaining. Of course, I'm only listening to them because I'm trying to get 'I Think I Love You' by the Partridge Family OUT of my head. That song is cute the first time you hear it, and then it ghets stuck in your head and IT NEVER GOES AWAY! Haha, pretty pathetic... I've listened to it so many times trying to get it out of my head that I've completely memorized the lyrics and could randomly burst out in that song even while listening to something completely different and get the lyrics and tune perfect. (Hey that's hard! Have you ever tried to do that?) Yepps, so this is getting kind of long... isn't it? Bored yet? Of course, if you've actually read this far you must be as bored as I am. I'm starting to wonder if there is a single coherent sentence in this thing...? Wow BIG WORDS!! Just kidding. I have nothing else to rant about... Aw, sad day. But I don't feel like seeking out some other form of entertainment just yet so I think I'm just going to keep going. Sorry. You may want to stop reading now. I mean, really, it can only get worse from here. Well, actually I guess this is a site for music so I could educate you in the ways of my favorite music. Okay I think I will... Hmm... Where to start....? My favorite bands as of now are Chevelle, Three Days Grace, Breaking Benjamin, and I've recently revisited Simple Plan (laughing is not allowed right now), Blink 182 (okay even I know that's pathetic, but the Mark, Tom And Travis Show is freaking funny...for a while...if you're REALLY bored...), and Green Day (hey, the original Green Day stuff was actually pretty good, it's their new stuff that sucks.) Umm, yeah there's a lot more but I found something more entertaining so I'll return to this next time. Cya! Email me if you want. I can always use more entertainment. emmo2395@nkcsd.k12.mo.us

So I guess I'm just going to randomly update this when I'm bored and have nothing better to do... so maybe pretty often. I think I'll just pretend to have a conversation with someone then... So how have you people been? I'm good I guess. I've recently realized that I have absolutely no life. Although, I guess you probably figured that out by the fact that I'm having an imaginary conversation. Oh, well. What have you been up to? I haven't talked to you in a while...ever actually but whatever... Hmm... already out of things to say. I'll update again when I'm bored...