nearly everything i've wrote is practically a year old. strange old ways time has of running off with the stupid things i say, they still make me cringe.

whats new - shes asks herself. nothing, now thats a surprise ........ i hope you dont mind if i leave this here, its just i dont have anywhere to put something so stupid ........ *think its about time i edited this peice of shit. i could write about how i care about certain things but the truth is i dont give a toss, i could also say im going somewhere in life but that i seem to have misplaced my ticket. i have zero ambition and i dont want for much, i say if you build to much for yourself its just more to lose or leave behind, dont worry, i know thats incredibly stupid but my think tank packed up when someone overloaded it with shit of the bull kind. i dont like people making big statements...well about themselves, it makes me cringe. theres one i particularily hate "you probably wont ever understand me' you'll probably do anything it takes not to be understood, so it really makes for a person not many people would like to. fat tina malone is a good example. awfull woman. i find it hard to deal with getting, and unless im blind drunk im not so to speak 'getting' .not that i mind. i sit around and wonder alot, daydream about what could have been and therefore never know what would've been. i can talk for hours if your the right person. but regardless, im still boring on a bad day. i like to think i can tell if well get along by the first few things you say, dont think im ignorant if i ignore you, we'd only be wasting each others time. ...... what makes people say the things they do. i only know what stops me saying the things i really want to. i wonder whats the magic words. i wonder what you want to hear. if you want to hear it, what your thinking. everything probably. i probably miss you way more than i'll ever know.