Yeah You Bleed Just To Know Your Alive Things that I'm currently wondering ... Is it normal to think about suicide? I would never kill myself, but I do think about it. I wouldn't kill myself because it would kill my parents and the few people I do love, and also because life is so precious. There are thousands that die each day that would kill for just one more day on earth, and i just sometimes wonder why God left me on the earth and people like me who at times, take life for granted, but takes away the lives of those so young and hopeful. I try not to do things i don't want to, and ask anyone I know, I'm famous for speaking my mind, but things just don't makes sense. Why did my cousins get taken away from their mother, family, and friends while there are people out on the streets still living, who murder people left and right as well deal drugs to kids? Next question, is it right to support things just because or should you actually believe in the cause? Liek today, in school, they had a day of silence to fight for gay and lesbian rights. Well, hell, i'm all for gays, lesbians, bisexuals, straights.. it's just a label. I think if two people love eachother then they should be together, no matter what. Love is so rare that whenever or however it is found, you should hold on to it. But anyway, for the day of silence you wore a tye dye shirt if you were participating and didn't have to be called on or talk, but then during fire drills and at lunch, people who were partcipating were talking. Most of the people participating could really care less about the cause but just wanted a day without talking, and that got me thinking. YOu know how you get money taken off your taxes or whatever if you donate money? well, does it matter if the people only donate for the tax exemptiion and not because they support the cause? i can think of reasons to support both sides like if they're just donating to donate for things like gay lesbian rights, then their relationships won't work because people may still be agaisnt it, defeating the purpose. But then for things like cancer research, even if oyu don't believe in it, the money will help tremendously. Sooo confusingg !! last thing for today, how many people out there feel as alone and ostracized from society as I do? I'd ask people straight out but that just makes you look weird. I wish i could, but i'm not that strong. I sincerely admire those who can go against the flow of normal society, not just to be different like some obviously do, but because they truly feel/think that way.