I went to colorado for spring break and met the most amazing guy ever. Rewind. Fast Forward. P (from below) broke up with his girlfriend and said he still wasn't over me. I said that i would think about getting back together. A is just out of the picture, never made a move, I'm not sure about how i actually felt. P went to cancun with some friends for spring break, I went to colorado, decided we would talk when we are both home. He comes home tomorrow. And now for the shocker ... I'm head over heels in L-O-V-E and I don't even know his last name. Isn't it grandd ? i've never felt so wonderful in my life. His names colin and he's from chicago and besides a few minor facts thats all i know. I don't know if I'm completely pyscho or what. We had one or two conversations and honest to god, i would marry the kid if he named a time and place.he has my number and hasn't called, and you know what, I'm a bit disappointed but not extraordinarily upset. You know why? becuase i know there is something out there, something greater then you and I, something that's worth living for. Maybe what me and colin had wasn't love, but it was more then what I've ever had between me and p, or a, or any other guy for that matter. He puts life into me. He makes me feel alive! i can't explain the feeling, but it's like when he looked at me, the room dimmed and nothing else mattered. we were two people, connected. So cliche but it's true. i don't care if i ever see or hear from him, as long as the feeling is out there, i have something to live for. maybe we'll meet up again, maybe we won't, but i don't care, it's in destiny's hands. all i know is there's something else out there, more then i've felt before, and i'm not settling for anything else. When P comes home tomorrow i'm going to tell him exactly this, "I am in love with love." even if what i'm feeling isn't love it's something greater then what i have now. And colin, if by some chance you're reading this, yes i am crazy, and i felt something insane with you. Shane said that he thinks that we connected, and it was obvious to him. not so obvious to you obviously (it's been two days, no call yet!), but don't worry. you don't have to call, don't feel obligated, just thank you for showing me something more. just don't hold my psychotic actions against me. i realize we don't know each other like at all but i felt something, thanks for showing me it.