I'm petite. I have blonde hair and blue eyes. Isn't it funny how hair and eyes always go together, you always here people say such as; "I have brown hair and green eyes"...odd. I used to be athletic, but my health has caught up with me (asthma, heart condition, lack of vitamins..blah blah) I'm fair complected. I wear brand name clothes like all the other girls, bleh. I tell myself I'll step out of my little box and dress the way I really want to. I never do though. I used to be all punk.emo.hxc. I don't know. That's been 3 years ago. I didn't really know what those meant so I don't know what I was. Then I went all prep, I am still. I don't go all out though, like fake nails and such. I keep my nails short, I keep my make up natural, I like to look real not like I'm an airbrushed photo. I'm smarter than most of my age group. I don't make exceptional grades, mainly because I don't try. A friend of mine always says I'm a 40year old professor sort man in a 14 year old girl's body. The things I enjoy, I'm not like the other kids, I pull it off like I am though...it's easier that way. I have a small family, home family that is. My mom, me, my step dad. I have an older sister (19) she's in AK though. I have two cats and three dogs. I'm obsessive, compulsive, a perfectionist, introspective, restless, and faithless. I have an abusive boyfriend...

Upon reading this journal; Please, do not allow yourself to arouse any sort of sympathy for me. This is a mere way to express myself. If you feel you cannot keep from sympathizing then just stop reading here. I'm not going to explain the above yet, I'll do that in later entries. I've been using songmeanings for about two years. This will be the fourth account I've made (sorry mods :]) I made my first one, but left it behind and made my most used one. Then I made a third one which I had planned use, but I forgot the screen name. Now, I'm making this one. I'll probably just use this one off and on. I use QL (main) quite often. I fluently journal in that one, but people I know now read it. So, I'm making this one. My name is, from Shakespeare's Julius Caesar. I haven't read it, but lately I've been reading over some of the scenes in his plays. "Cowards die many times before their deaths, The valiant never taste of death but once." My favorite band is Chiodos, say what you will about the new trend. I liked them before that, believe me or don't. I really don;t care which one you choose. I like other bands such as; death cab for cutie, modest mouse, brand new, straylight run, iamerror(thanks to a friend), drop dead, gorgeous, Vivaldi, Prokofiev, coheed and cambria, circa survive, johnny cash, the beatles,john denver, john lennon (lots of johns..haha) etc. I will listen to pretty much anything, at least once. I read quite a bit, well I used to. I haven't been lately. I'm currently re-reading Alice in Wonderland... for the 20th time or so. Some of my favorite books are: For Whom the Bell Tolls The Sun Also Rises Great Expectations Alice in Wonderland Where Are the Children? While My Pretty One Sleeps Farewell To Arms Gathering Blue (an easy read but a great book) there are many more, but I'm not going to list them. I read a Stephen King novel, it was awful. I think it was his first though. Salem's Lot. I really don't recommend it. That's all for now. I will most likely put an actually introduction in the next entry..whenever that will be. ps, thanks to mike and the team for making such a peachy site.