Okay, so...first blog. Wonder if anyone will read it? My boyfriend almost made me cry today...that happens every so often. I hate it. I wish we were ALWAYS happy. But that doesn't happen, right? It's normal for things to not be perfect? I don't know...most of the time, I feel like I bring it on myself because I can be such a jerk & I know I take things to far sometimes, but...I don't know. I can't change myself & I don't know that I want to. You shouldn't change yourself to make someone happy, right? But what if you know you're wrong? Ugh. I don't know. I just wish I could make things perfect. He means so much to me...he deserves the very best. I wish I could give it to him.