"As you walk on by Will you call my name?" Ugh. I'm all lightheaded and dizzy. For no particular reason. Vertigo or something. The season's changing. I can feel it in my bones. I know that it's barely september, and it's still hotter than hell. But the days are getting shorter. The trees are fading. And the sky is turning gray. I don't know why...but season changes always have weird effects on me. It's a mix between deja vu and a brief floods of past emotions. I read this story once by Ray Bradbury about a community a hundred years in the future living on Venus, where it always rains. Except like every 9 years the sun comes out for an hour. I don't like rain. I don't like clouds and cold. It makes me feels claustrophobic. That's why I live in California. Oh yeah the county fair's coming to town. I love the fair. Can't wait. Last year, I went right before my cousin's wedding. She and her finance went and so did Brian and his friend, Brandon. That had to be 1 of my happiest memories. Corey and Melissa looked like one of those perfect movie star couples and Brandon was super cute :) Anyways...I hope the fair this year, is as great as last year was. Song Stuck in my Head: Don't You Forget About Me - Simple Minds. God, this song won't leave me alone. I've been hearing it everywhere. But it's gotta be my favorite 80's song ever. "Don't you forget about me I'll be alone, dancing you know it baby Going to take you apart I'll put us back together at heart, baby"

I need to find some new friends. The few I have are self centered and cold. This isn't how I wanted to start off the year. 2nd week of school and I have nothing to talk about. It was picture day today. After zero period marching band I was getting dressed in the bathroom and overhearing bits and pieces of gossip. I hated it. Shallow. Harsh. I swear, those girls could find something horrible to say about every other girl at the high school. And they're soooo insecure. They spend practically the whole 1st period in front of the mirror, straightener in 1 hand and makeup in the other, begging for constant reassurance and praise. I get out of there as fast as possible. Edward Scissorhands is on HBO. Yay. Song Stuck in my Head: The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows - Brand New "So keep the blood in your head And keep your feet on the ground Perfect depression song. And the music doesn't even sound like it. (not that I'm depressed. just apathetic)

Today was the first day of school. It was insanely dull. The teachers lectured and called us “children” and their faces broke out into huge grins whenever some kid asked a stupid question. It’s like they think we’re still a bunch of lovable innocent little 3rd graders. Do they realized how barbaric and nasty we really are? Do they really believe we’re all clueless morons that can’t function with out detailed directions and rules to set boundaries and guide us. And it's really annoying cuz the boy/girl ratio is like 5 girls to every guy. All the girls look the same. Blond, shit loads of makeup. Frizzy hair caused by straightening each individual strand like 5 times a morning. This is where i need some individuality. In geometry there were only like 5 guys and 15 girls. I need to stand out!!!! I watched The Breakfast Club yesterday. I love 80's movies. :) Song Stuck in My Head: Stay Beautiful - The Last Goodnight. "Don't stop, don’t change, stay beautiful One life, today, you're irresistible"

i need to delete these other stupid isolated enties (for the 5th fucking time) School starts in 2 days. I'll get around to it then. I'll start writing again too. I need a new wallet. Right now I'm watching a video on youtube on how to make one out of duct tape. Pretty interesting stuff right there.