my last entry's kinda funny now...... i think i over-reacted a tiny bit. i still don't like her but i understand her more now. she's actually in grade 9 but is still a slut. her skirt is so short! like 5cm below her ass. scary, but she got 5th in cross country. so her smoking hasn't been real bad. she talked to me too... weird and doesn't stare me down anymore! yay well enough about her.... nothing about my life is real good at the moment..... i'm tired all the time, and get sad real easy. i'm kinda all over the place. there's only one thing that keeps me together really, my boyfriend. sad i'm only 14 but i depend on him alot, to much but as long as he doesn't leave me i'll be ok.... i hope. not that he respects me alot. i'm not much of a person anymore. i used to be, but everythings starting to get at me. Like mum is kind of an drunk..... even infront of my Rikki. it's shitful. seriously embarrasing but he undrstands. his family isn't exactly picturesque. well as far as i've heard it's not. bumma hmmm.... can't be bothered typing anymore.... good night ..