So today's Monday which sucks out loud but this weekend was pretty good. It was my mom's b-day and we slept late and went to our neighbors house to exchange late x-mas gifts and have dinner...which happened to be McDonalds which was totally gross b/c i haven't had it in a while. Anyways we got home around 11:30 P.M. and then my sis called (she was at her friends wedding and she lives in the city) and said she was coming home at 2 a.m. to have "dinner". After we picked her up we had to drive around for a while b/c all the damn diners were closed. Finally we found one and we had a pretty good meal. We went home and i didnt get to bed for a long time. The next morn my sis made horrible breakfast as always and i attempted to do my homework. I was supposed to get my new cell phone so i just said i was done so we could leave. We had an alright time at the mall but there was nobody who had the phone i wanted. It was ridiculous. So then we went to dinner where the hottie was our waiter. I hadnt been there in a while b/c after i found out that he was like 5 years older then me lol. So yea we had a good time and my and my sis were laughing at everything. We were pretty giddy. So we had a good time and I ordered breakfast which is something i never do...man hot guys can make amazing things happen. And about today... I've realized that the hardest thing to say to somebody that has something that you wanted is congratulations. It was so awkward to get through today. Ugh...I feel like I miss life and like feeling real emotions or something. I feel like there's a total void in my life and I have no idea what to do about it. I don't really think anybody would understand but thats b/c i dont have anybody I can totally tell everything too....but anyways....yea...it's weird to feel empty.

Yea,yea the title is horrible but whatever. I've had a crappy day. I got an hour and a half of sleep b4 going to school and just everything was pretty crazy there. Except i got to hang out with this boy i kinda like. He is in only one class of mine...gym. But i guess if he falls in like with me during gym he'll love me when i'm regular. I found out 2day that his shoulder isnt very comfortable to put your head on. I believe it was a dissapointment to both of us. AND at the end of the day i found out i did not make the musical. I can never get the things i have a passion for b/c the teachers pick their kids and their favorites. I'm totally bored trying to cheer up. Dane Cook and crazy friends and new pjs. it's sorta working... Anyway I should introduce myself... I'm Lilly-Jayde and I write songs b/c i want to start a band but i dont seem to have talented friends *no offense* My best guy friend says he'll sing with me at the next open mic at our school and i love him for it. He's like my big bro now even though i liked himb4 but he's like in LOVE with this stupid girl but w/e. O and the boy I like is kinda a musician but u wouldnt expect it. That's why i like him hes full of surprises. Anyway yea i'm still completely single in a school infested with love. It's a little sickening. I think love spreads faster then staff infection up here.... "We're gonna die like this you know, Miserable and Old"-TBS Number 5 with a Bullet If u really want to chat u can also im me at SprNtrlSweety b/c that's the one i'm usually signed on to.