well its christmas eve i cant believe it, it doesn't feel like x-mas at all like i don't feel the spirit this year:( well tomorrow i'm going to kim's for x-mas hopefully it'll be fun a lot of biffles are gonna be there so that would be fun:) the day after x-mas is my year anniversary with him:) i cant believe its gonna be a year, it dosent feeel like it at all i wonder what we are gonna do apparently he wants to be alone i hope it will be fun and shizz hopefully he will like me gift i got him tdwp shirt and a hello kitty plush he's so gayyy but i deal with it gay people are so cute anyways i havent talked to david yet:( hopefully i will soo today i went to the mall with richard and got davids anniversary gift because i thought he didnt get me one but peiyu called me in the morning telling me he did and i felt so stupid thinking he didnt but whatever i got him a gift so he better like it cant wait until tomorrow PRESENTS!!!!!!! and just being with friends makes me happy:) alot i love my friends so much :)

not in a good mood only writing these so i can read back on to see how i felt winter break is finally here and for some reason i'm not really happy about it boyfriend doesn't care about me i have no idea why i'm still with him but it hurts alot he's grounded and says he wants to see me but he doesn't walk out the front door to see me he says he can't and that he's a good boy i just think he's not trying hard enough and he's been making me sad lately haven't hungout with him since forever i want to end it but its almost xmas and out year anniversary it would be hard for me and him but i don't know what to do it hurts alot peace