im upset right now... my brother came home to see us for the xmas holidays bc he is in the navy. it is making me upset bc he doesnt ever eat ne more... he isnt anorexic its just he barely eats and when he does he eats super healthy. it makes me scared. iits because when he was alittle youger like ibn junior high he was picked on bc he was fat. i think all those thoughts are still in his head and he is scared that is going to happen again. so right now we all tried to go out to eat bc its his last day here with us...he was giving everyone a problem ssaying i dont want to go out to eat bc i am not going to eat nething.,.. i was like u cannot just not eat. u have to eat soemthing and then that caused a huge problem among the whole family. everyone was fighting and then my dad went on a walk and i wentand tried to find him and i could not. he finally just got home andhe is talking to my brother. i seriously thing my brother has a huge mental problem of some sort., he is very antisocial and doesnt eat. i mean he has friendbut he never wants to leave the house he is always playing a STUPID computer game called world of warcraft and i think it is like possessed lol and it makes people crazy. thats my opinion. idk i guess i just wish i knew why he was sooo unhappy.

this christmas was okay. i am listening to underoath and explaining to my dad y i listen to this type of music. i was making him listen to its dangerous business and he was like y are they screaming... i was like its just a type of music... he was like y do u listen to it and i was like well i love rock music bc its nice when u are having a problem and dont know how to get through it there is a song out there that is about the same thing. it makes u realize that there are other people out there with the same problem and it just makes u feel better. i love to listen to the song and swing. i love swinging it just makes everything better. but i am going to go bc we are going to go to my aunts for a party thing... gay!