I don't know what's so great about new years eve. Tomorrow is just gonna be another boring day. I'm bored out of my mind watching Tila's New Years Party, again. I just wish today would be over with. I just wish winterbreak would be over with. I wanna keep my mind busy by doing school work or something. I rather sart drama with people so I have something to do. I hate having to sit here everyday trying to keep myself from self-destruction. Holding up all this anger. It hurts more than anything. I wanna think about something other than the things that forced me to be this way. I don't wanna think about this anger and frustration. I've been having headaches, sudden temper outbursts, and food cravings. I'm feeling sick to my stomach and I can't stop fidgiting. I feel like I'm crazy. Like I'm some mental patient except I'm not in some pleasent hospital. I'm in a hell house.