If you were reincarnated as a sea creature, what would you want to be? -a jellyfish, because one of them mothers stung me once and I still want revenge. Whos your favorite redhead? -Lucille Ball. Isn't she everyone in TV Land's favorite redhead? What do you order when your at IHOP? -french toast because I'm too lazy to make it myself. Yummmmm....french toast. Last book you read? -I'm rereading "East of Eden" by Steinbeck. That's right, America, I'm literate. Deal with it. Describe your mood. -swinging. Describe the last time you were injured? -well, I don't know if this counts, but I chipped a fingernail yesterday. It was pretty traumatic. Of all your friends, who would you want to be stuck in a well with? -why would two people be stuck in a well together? Deserted island, yes...a well? I don't think so. You'd have to be pretty much of a dumbass to fall in a well you just saw someone else fall into. And my friends are NOT dumbasses. Most of them. Rock concert or symphony? -actually been to both, but gonna have to go with the rock concert. The drugs are better. Or so I hear. What is the wallpaper of your cell phone? -ST. LOUIEEEEEEE Favorite Soda? -Mountain Dew What type of shirt are you wearing? -a grey one. If you could only use one form of transportation... -a space shuttle. Most recent movie you have watched in the theater. -Shutter. ...sucks. Drop tons of acid before you go see it. Name a celebrity you have had the hots for: -HAD? I still have the hots for Johnny Depp. Yummmm....Johnny Depp. Whats your favorite kind of cake? -German Chocolate. Guhhhh. What did you have for dinner last night? -Ah fuck me if I even remember last night. Look to your left, what do you see? -My box of goldfish that I wanna eat really bad but they're... just... out.. of reach.... Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? -that sounds like a lot of unnecessary bending over to me. Plus, I rock the velcro. Hell yeah. Favorite toy as a child? -ice skates. Is that a toy? If not, then my pedal tractor. Yeah, I had a lot of fun on my pedal tractor on the 7 feet of sidewalk we had. Do you buy your own groceries? -no, I've hooked up with the grocery fairy and he brings whatever I need, whenever I want. Look into it; it's great. Do you think people talk about you behind your back? -they talk about me to my face, so I'm gonna go with a "yes" on this one. Whens the last time you had gummy worms? -November 25, 1989. It was a horrible experience that was seared into my brain forevermore. What is your favorite fruit? -blueberries. Like blueberry french toast. Yummm....blueberry french toast on Johnny Depp. Do you have a picture of yourself doing a cartwheel? -lol. no. Do you like running long distances? -I don't like running any distance. Have you ever eaten snow? -good grief, who hasn't? Look, myspace, you're going to have to put a little more thought into these questions. What color are your bedsheets? -floral because they make me feel like a princess. Whats your favorite flower? -Pillsbury. Oh wait a minute, I think I misunderstood the question. Do you do ballet? -Who is ballet? I'm pretty sure I don't. Do you listen to classical music? -and play it on the piano. That's right, America, I'm cultured. Deal with it. What is the 1st TV Theme song that pops in your head? -the Beverly Hillbillies. That could so be us if we'd just hit a damn oil well. Do you watch Sponge bob? -no... wtf What temperature is it outside right now? -not warm enough. Do people consider you smart -my boss does, and she's the one who pays me. How many piercings do you have? -i have one in each ear and there will be no more. Are you signed on AIM? -no. msn ftw. Have you ever tried gluing your fingers together? -yes. Yes, I have. Shut up. Grade school is boring. How do you feel about your family? -I feel it's a good thing blood is thicker than water. Do you have an iPod? -a Nano

today is a good day. so far. it's 1:17 PM and i've been at work where basically nothing can/ever happens. i just talked to my exboy. we got into a huge fight last night and he basically told me to fuck off and hung up on me, and then when i didn't call back being all "baby,baby plz" he got even more pissed and had the audacity to call ME back and bitch me out some more. then it was my turn to hang up, hah. i tried apologizing this morning (it WAS partly my fault, i woke him up to talk for a few, then he wanted to talk longer but i had a ride waiting for me outside.. and there's NO way i could've gotten in that car with him on the phone, hahaha.) so anyways, i tried apologizing, but my texts kept bouncing back so i guess that's like, a sign from God that i shouldn't say sorry first, eh? anyways when i got home from work it showed that he called me at 8 so i called him back and he said they were doing auditions for their (potentially) new drummer, and i was cool with that, he didn't sound pissed... then he called back like 5 minutes ago and was being all cutesy wootsy and then apologized. i still wouldn't get back with him. hahahaha. ___________________________________________________ this is totally irelevant from Deveebeebee but: i think i can have them both. not in the sexual/romantic way, mind you. but i will have them both. _________________________________________________ onto more important news: some CRAZY ASS shit happened today at work. holy shit. i went and watched Shutter last night with some friends and it completely freaked me the fuck out. Japanese people already freak me out enough thanks to The Grudge (that movie seriously fucking scarred me for life), The Ring, and some other gay chinese-japanese-dirty knees movie. anyways, back to the crazy shit that happened at work. i thought i saw my friend Steven walk by the kitchen when i was washing dishes so i peeked my head out and was all "hi!" and then the guy turned around and I realized it wasn't steven, hahahaha, but the dude looked really fucking confused for like... .5 seconds, then was like "hey!!! i havwen't seen you in FOREVER, girl! how the hell are you?!!?" and i was like oh god dude, i probably know this guy cause he obviously knows me.... well i guess i gotta play it off... godddd.... me: "i know!! way to disappear off the face of the earth you lil scamper!" him: "heh... yeah. ive been pretty busy lately.. etc.." it went on like that for like straight-up 3 minutes. 3 very awkward minutes. then finally....... he breaks first. and goes, "so wow, this may seem incredibly rude y'know.. but just since it's been like, SO LONG, you know.. i totally forgot your name.. is it.... is it, Ann?" LOL i just started bustin the fuck up laughing and i was like "DUDEIMSORRYITHOUGHTYOUWEREMYFRIENDSTEVENIHAVENOFUCKINGCLUEWHOYOUARE!!" then there was an awkward silence of like, 30 seconds. then he BUSTS the fuck out laughing and was like "dude!! i have no idea who you are either!" then we laughed some more for like a minute, and awkwardly went about our way. man i'm still crackin up just t hinkin about it. another thing, i had NO fucking clue the Country Store had a basement. wtf? so yeah, i was cleaning out the mop bucket outside, and i went to take a step back and fucking FELL DOWN THE BASEMENT STAIRS BECAUSE NOBODY TOLD ME THERE WAS A FUCKING BASEMENT IN THE FUCKING STOREROOM. GAH. nah though, lol, it wasn't that bad, it was only like 5 steps and there was some soft pink stuff (keke) at the bottom, which im thinking was insulation, but i dunno. anyways i was obsessing about the basement all day after that. my boss wasn't there and it was just a bunch of random old ladies who kept trying to get me to get them hip-hop n happenin. lol, seirously, as soon as i walk in this chick was like "hey kim! my name's linda, did you go out last night? you look tired!" AND THEN they let me sleep on top of the 50 pound salt bags hahahahaha. dude. that was so fucking cool. i passed out for like straight up 2 hours. wow. im typing entirely too much. future arthiritis ftw. i need to shower. i have mud allllll over me, coz ive been a dirty girl. hahahahahah. oh, gross. anyways,bi!

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHGAAHAHAHAHAHAH AAHHAHAHAAHAHAHHAAHAHAAJAHAHAHAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAGAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHA HAHAAHAHAHHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHH AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHhahahHA dude, what the fuck, hahahahahaha. it's cute how you give a little girl a teensy bit of attention and she takes it and runs with it like a little prepubescent boy in Hooters. i think that's called infatuation. obsession. in-looooove. i think our little 12-year-old blossom here has a little crushy-wushy :) it's okay dear, i think it's adorable. you can be my little shnuck-ums if you'd like.

lol it's funny how everything can be laid out in front of me, right there, for me to just snatch up and be content. but no. i literally don't think it's humanly possible for me to ever be content. i can never be happy with something because my expectations are too high for anyone to even come close to filling them. _______________________________________ so last nightwas fun. spring break \m/

hah. there's two lesbians in my English class and they're doing their Persuasive papers on gay rights. mine? well, my title is: WHY GOD SHOULD KILL ALL HOMOSEXUALS hahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahhaahahahahahah. honestly. i have notnhing against gays. but dn't you DARE fucking call me a narrow-minded homophobic asshole because i'm old-fashioned and i prefer marriage to be the same way it's always historically been. betweeen a man and a woman. look, be gay all you want. just don't go flaunting it in front of me because i will inevitably bash you. my sister is a lesbian and i have three gay cousins. I love them all but i do make fun of them a lot. can't stand the heat, get out of the kitchen. hahahahahahahaahahhaahahahah i am so blazed.

aaahaa, you knew i'd be back. be still, my bebez

hahaha, everytime i open this god forsAken thing to write an entry, i always get busy doing something else. not alot has happened lately, the best friend is mad at me, has been harassing me, as have all her other friends/random people she told she hates me to. go figure. i'd take more time to make this out to be a bigger deal than i am, but i'm not really feeling quite so up to it today. spring break starts tomorrow. woooo0o0o. i'm definitely excited. can't wait to see what (if something?) happens. i just read my mom's article in The Paper. She used a Die, Emperor! Die! quote :) uhhm. not alot is going on to be honest... reconnect with old friends recently. that always rules

maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan. maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan. i disappoint myself sometimes. wait, sometimes? i mean once, today. ..for the first time, ever, i turned down a kiss from a super hot guy. a POTENTIALLY HOT FUCKIN KISS! like, it was there. it was SO there. the face was cradled, the crotches were touching, the lips were being stared at.. you know. basically all i had to do was go the 10 degrees to press my lips against his. but NO. you know what i did instead? "heh...i....i should get back to my homework." WHAT WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT SHIT?!?! maaaan. this nigga right here NOT turn down kisses from the hottest guy in the school. ESPECIALLY. but y'know what? i do wonder what would happen if i could go back. would i do it or puss out again? i honestly think i wouldn't do it. it just sucks. hahaha. fuuuck. it was SO THERE.

ahhhh, freedom. choices.

oh god i have never been so lonely in my entire life.. i want to apologize. i want him back. i want him to hug me and tell me it's going to be alright. i want him to carry me to my bed and cry with me. i want him back. i want him back. i want him b a c k. i don't know what to do lately. people are jumping all over me asking me what i'm going to do. hey assholes guess what? I DON'T FUCKING KNOW. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE. i don't think i'm heartbroken. just disappointed. lonely. i am in need of affection and intimacy so bad. i can literally get addicted to a guy's touch. the way i feel so.. safe and warm. secure. /end pity party. on a higher note: me and my friend were gonna do some insanely insane mind-blowing shit yesterday. hahaha, but we both pussed out (plus we had to make a pipe out of aluminum foil, WTF?) so we just got high and watched movies instead. which was cool, cause we watched some Quentin Tarantino movie and then Flushed Away (which was def. cute, those little slugs