I have to say right now I've gone a full 180 in my view of myself, I would say that I like myself, and that I can actually see myself enjoying life now without being drunk... Funny where I started a year ago, this is totally unexpected in all. Dream big and dream kind... It always comes in that moment when you feel nothing can save, then you save yourself. With just a bit of help from those people around you to pull you out of that hole, to prop you up, tell you you're fine, that you have purpose, that shouldn't settle for less than you deserve. I now know what I want more than anything this is the only conflict that I face anymore. [You might think I'd delete the past enteries but I have to hold onto my past, I need a reminder of the past or I'm going to fall back into...]