It feels like an end of an era...

I watch the series finale of The Shield just 15 minutes ago and all I can say is, I wish it wasn't the end, from the start that show was amazing. In terms of writing and acting. The best for any TV show.

I'm a little uninspired to write anything more so...

I just want the whole idea to go away...

I need to figure out my own shit, and yet I'm meant to help out others? I mean really, no one knows what is floating around in my head, it's nearly a year from my opening of this total bullshit fax but I need it to keep going... 2009 is right in my face and I want this year to end... But some how I want to balance the year, fix it somehow?

I keep looking back and all I see is her and how she came and totally fucked up my life more than anyone else before, I feel better in the sense I now know what I am capable of in terms of anger...

Some people just have to be shot down... I think this is just becoming all too much to handle...

You were nothing so divine...

LAG is all I have right now, it keeps my mind in check, my muse, my motivation...

I am the sum of my environment and everyone in it... However...

... This is all my fault.