I haven't updated in so long. But its not like anyone reads this. So New Years. I made resolutions last night but I forgot most of them. I am probably the worst girlfriend ever. Well, not worse or ever, but I am kinda bad. I dunno. I mean what kind of girlfriend uses the threat "You're not giong to have a girlfriend soon." even though I' kidding, I found out an hour ago how that made my boyfriend feel. And I felt like shit after and I started crying,. He doesn't know why I feel sad, and he doesn't know I'm crying. But I'm going to apologize to him, and hopefully he'll forgive me. Learning from this means I have to think before I act. In this case, I have to learn to think before I speak. even if I am kidding. So, my friends decided to make some sort of organization that'll help the world. Frankly, I don't believe the world can be helped. But I said I would support them. So I am. They plan on having bake sales and feeding the homeless. I don't know. People learn to self sustain, with the occasional nudge. But I think it's more than a nudge. I mean, it's mankinds fault that we have global warming and etc. Its a homeless persons fault that they are living in the streets. I mean if it's a homeless persons with a genetic disorder, thats different. But other than that, where people are, it's based on their decisions. I mean, yeah you feed a homeless guy for a day, but next week or even next year, he'll be on the same street or in another town and still no home. I don't know. I rant too much. I think about life too much. And I analyze too much.

Day 2. I'm still annoyed at my friends. My boobs hurt so that means my period is gonna start soon. It is very cold right now. Damnn. I'll continue later. I want to take a really really hot shower cause its so damn cold.

I have no idea what to do with my life. I only signed up for this because none of my friends have one and its not the "mainstream" blogging shit like myspace or xanga. Speaking of friends. I think my friends are just fake fake fake. Hey. So called "best friends", tell me what the hell did I do to you to deserve this? I thought we were all best friends? Does that mean nothing, and I mean we like each other all equally, supposedly. but no, you're all playing favorites with each other and not inviting me to almost anything. I mean, what the fuck? No ones tells me shit and then I introduce you to my other friends and you start hanging out with them? I mean its nice that you're all hanging out, but when you don't invite me? What the hell? I found out recently that you all went to the mall without me. And going to each others houses and playing tennis together? And not telling me? You're all GREAT friends. At least tell me these things. And planning to do things without telling me? Telling me things last minute cause then I can't go for sure. I wonder why I'm even still friends with all of you. So let me say somethings about me. I am 15 years old. I am your basic human, selfish, needy, judgemental, and etc. I do not think humans deserve sympathy, theres a reason why the world is crashing. I am opinionated and loud. I'm obnoxious and I'm pretty damn bitchy. I need attention and I need food. I do not believe in animal cruely nor the death penalty. I live in California, in a small town that a lot of the world has never heard of. I most likely will not go to college and I am failing a lot of classes. I am not your typical asian. I do not get straight A's except PE. I am not smart, I procrastinate and I can't even use chopsticks. I hate chinese food. I think I am fat even though I weigh 102. I'm auctually in denial. But I try to be nice and considerate. I have a boyfriend though. He makes me very happy. And he's tall as hell. :D