in 2 days im 18 on the 9th of April. & im gunna get frieddddddd with kayla today XD

it happend again, he broke up with me again, and this time it hit me really hard. i was crying for 4-5 hours straight, talking on the phone with him. he thinks that i am cheating on him. and supposidy that i lied to him, which i kind of did. but, the whole situation just makes me sick to my stomache. i felt sooooooo depressed. so my friends came over, saw me crying, they said that it almost made them cry to see me balling my eyes out on the phone. so they spent the night, just to keep me company for the night, and to also make sure that i didnt do anything stupid like hurting myself... :/ but the good thing is that he said that he would sleep on it, and call me again today. which is why im so anxious to get out of school. but the thing that i dont get is that he told me that he wasnt breaking up with me. ........im confused, i REALLLLLLLY need CAMERON in my life. especailly to make me SANE, lawllllz. i love him to death, and i cant get over him, EVER.... :'( [6 months] :( i reallllllllllllllly missssss him,

omfg, i am so excited! im going to be my bby and get some shit, and omg, money and damn, alot of stuff

:/ im sooooo scared if i test + then i could go to jail. shit, cause im 17 turning 18 in the beggining of April. this sucks sooooo fucking bad and my friend, is pretty much going to fail hers toooo. she did alot more shit than i did. damn.... lyfe sucks donky dick sometimes. T_T

this sucks, and so is my boyfrannnnn :( except he is more sick than me. ugh, i made it all winter without getting sick, now that its the begining of march, i got sick. this totally sucks asshole. :'( yeah, i cant wait for spring though, and april 9th, my 18TH BIRFDAY~

i was at TBA and i am 100% sure that i just saw JUSTIN WARNER, bahahaha woowwwwww! thats pretty funny, and he is dating some chick, that goes to benzie, and courtney (justins ex) is pretttyyy pissed about the whole thing. i think justin should be with courtney to be honest, even though we sometimes didnt get along, it just would be better than to be with that nasty ass rat. XD lawlllllz. beotchh >__

omg, i finally got to talk to my boyfriend on the phone! and he got me a diamond ring worth $500

my life sucksss a-hole. damn, yeah, i got in alooot of trouble last night for having a party and skipping school the day after that. my mom said she hates me while she was flipping me off, and telling me i suck,and im really stupid. but thats really not the first time i have heard that from her. and i might have to move in with my dad 3 hrs. away in grand rapids. which i realllly realllly dont want to and she dosent think that i am going to graduate. which i will, i just have to try a little harder. :/ and she is threatening to throw all of my stuff outside when i get home, and i will probably be suspended from school for skipping, cause my mom is extreamly gay like that. and i will have to go talk to the school counsler. ughhh. my life sucks, it really does.

yesssur i had a party at muh house thursday night, and it was off the heeezay! my neighbor was calling muh house at like 11 30 bitching about the noise, w/eeee f**k hur! lolz yeah, and then muh boyfriend broke up with me agian for the second time on friday night, then 10 mins later we got back together again, cause we are like addicted to eachother. bahahah but i really do love him , and the way he broke up with me, i cant get it out of my head from the way he said it to me, like: "ITS OVERRR" i was like omg,omg, omg, OMFG, what the helllll00000 is happening?@?@?#!@#%$%^^ damn, i was about to looose it. but everything is good in the h00d now. ily bby

im getting braces today, and missing like 2 days of school. to be in grand rapids. :/ omg, im sooo efing scared, and im probably going to sound like a weirdo, ughh. so im thinking of getting rainbow colors, then like hunter orange the next time. lols. yeah, but what i really want is diamonds on muh GRILLL YO! but i really dont have that kind of moneyy$$$$ bahahha, but hmmm, then i am hoping to score some "GOOODIES" if you know what i mean. i really need a hit. >_< peace out nigros xxx, sara