yeaaa i totally win. i found out how to change the email address so now its mine!! hahaha.

I have no idea what kind of way im exemplifying Christ on here. this site is like my only interaction with non Christains which is depressing. they probably think im a dude, and they dont know that im using my parents email address too. i dont know why i care so much....i guess i want to test me wings out in the "real world" before i go to college. cuz theres like real people here that dont know/dont like/hate God. and i have the daunting task of proving them wrong. i guess it helps that i kinda have an acceptable taste in music. the peeps that listen to like casting crwons and stuff im like thats nice, have fun witnessing to old people...i guess its my calling to show the punks and emos and goths the love of God. ill be accepted by them just by my music, and the music i write and that im slightly not ok. its the hardest and easiest mission at the same time. theyre so open and so terribly closed. nobody understands what im talking about but serisouly who would read my "journal" anyway? plus i know what theyre talking about with like heavy stuff most of the time. i was surprised to see that i have made 107 comments! and most of them is on songs where im the only post. and im yeah thats me for you. if anyone has God questions or senses inconsistencies in Chirstianity bring it cuz ive thought and struggled with pretty much every single question imaginable and im like the most untrusting, skeptical person on the planet. plus Christian Ethics class helps a bunch. i almost got beat up in that class for calling God a liar. heh thats me for you. speak my mind all the time even if its not appropriate or gets me hurt. but you can always trust me to tell you the truth. always.