so im pretty sure i made some people pretty mad with my comment on skillets song "better than drugs"...oops. now everyone probably thinks im a heathen who hates evangalism or something......well i can only hope they kind of understand what i was saying.....

id just like to make a little plug for capital lights here....i went to see hawk nelson and run kid run on the green t tour and when we got there the announcer guy was like "and yeah, we have actually a special surprise for you guys, another band is here. theyre a new band, who just signed with tooth and nail and i think youre really going to like them." and then we were like what the heck whos capital lights??? but they played and we all loved it!! aw man their sound is so unique and their words are some of the most original ive heard in a while and thats a compliment coming from a fellow song writer.

(in no particular order) if i was amazing i would put them in alphabetical order. guess im not amazing. *= bands that rock harder **= extra hardcore flyleaf* pillar* disciple* thousand foot krutch* titanic* stryper* demon hunter** becoming the architype** P.O.D.* toby mac relient k hawk nelson stellar kart fireflight* inhale exhale** maylene and the sons of disaster** superchick zao** underoath** skillet* the seventh power* resurrection band (rez band)* rev seven* project 86* plumb O.C. Supertones (which im sure everyone will agree are the best band ever) Newsboys audio adrenaline liptocoal living sacrifice** KJ-52 holy soldier* gaurdian* petra* family force 5* decyfer down (dechpher down)* decemberadio* dc talk comeback kid** bloodgood* alter bridge* devil wears prada** jonah33* scott stapp* showbread* tourniquet** war of ages** five iron frenzy MxPx* bleach kutless falling up* seventh day slumber* FM static switchfoot seventh seal run kid run rob rock red* barren cross* blindside* eowyn* X-sinner* cross culture rap/"hip hop" or whatev. for christ. LA symphony grits KJ 52 check out the cd "hip hope hits." rasta for christ: christafari papa san stichie

yeaaa i totally win. i found out how to change the email address so now its mine!! hahaha.

I have no idea what kind of way im exemplifying Christ on here. this site is like my only interaction with non Christains which is depressing. they probably think im a dude, and they dont know that im using my parents email address too. i dont know why i care so much....i guess i want to test me wings out in the "real world" before i go to college. cuz theres like real people here that dont know/dont like/hate God. and i have the daunting task of proving them wrong. i guess it helps that i kinda have an acceptable taste in music. the peeps that listen to like casting crwons and stuff im like thats nice, have fun witnessing to old people...i guess its my calling to show the punks and emos and goths the love of God. ill be accepted by them just by my music, and the music i write and that im slightly not ok. its the hardest and easiest mission at the same time. theyre so open and so terribly closed. nobody understands what im talking about but serisouly who would read my "journal" anyway? plus i know what theyre talking about with like heavy stuff most of the time. i was surprised to see that i have made 107 comments! and most of them is on songs where im the only post. and im yeah thats me for you. if anyone has God questions or senses inconsistencies in Chirstianity bring it cuz ive thought and struggled with pretty much every single question imaginable and im like the most untrusting, skeptical person on the planet. plus Christian Ethics class helps a bunch. i almost got beat up in that class for calling God a liar. heh thats me for you. speak my mind all the time even if its not appropriate or gets me hurt. but you can always trust me to tell you the truth. always.

i hope people didnt get mad about that relient k comment i made like a really long time ago.....like i was being really mean cuz i was depressed that day...it was probably cloudy...the truth is i really do like relient k but i did mean what i wrote. im listenin to christafari and it makes me so happy!