Ok, i had a very odd dream last nite. So i go to sleep at like haf 1...nothin wierd but my dream was ttly mental. I occasionally hav wierd ones... usually after drink is involved. But this was fukin wierd. So im bak playin football (i havent in lyk 2/3 years) dunno y but its th same team tht i left...i thnk. But anyways im playin an trainin an we're onto the match part at the end. Im a striker so chasin a ball down an it goes to th keeper. One of the cunts tht i started on a few weeks agao. I realised tht i wasny gna get to th ball but thot i keep th chase. I was inches off an take him out...by accident but on purpose. So he dusnt take it tht way an kiks out at me...so i jump on him an start punchin him in the face an smackin his head off th ground. After bout a minute of this i get up an kik him an walk away. So 2 weeks later (in th dream) im bak at training bt thers only bout 4 ppl there an another 4 wachin. An for sum reason my friend Ez- tht used to nt like me, tht i fell in love with, tht i hated, tht i fell in love with again, tht i stick up for at most times nw...- starts cryin. I dont know why bt she dus. So i go up an ask whts rong an i walk her home. So at her hous we go up to her room, which is actually a sofa bed at th top of a set of stairs- basically a hallway with this sofa bed. We si on th bed an start talkin an get under her covers to keep warm... i thnk. By this point i had taken my sock of an was wearin shorts so looked naked when i didnt hav th covers over my feet. Then i go to kiss her-obvo from these rollercoaster feelins above. As soon i i do she says NO an pulls away- as she has always dun or wud do. So i drop it- wierd for me bt hey. Then a bunch of ppl turn up to th house an it looks lyk im in bed with Ez bt make nuthin of it- Very odd. We were never left alone at school when i luvd her to th point she stopped talkin to me an even nw they cant leave me wen i speak to lasses. So this party has jus randomly started. Then there talk of this othr guy P who has sorta started stalkin her (in real life) an he apparantly made a pass an she wants to be with him...bt dusnt cos he's stalkin her. Then this lass tht hates Ez turns up an were lyk woa y is she here whos it gunna be next Kebab? Then i turn round an theres th guy tht i beat up at football an his friend. So i say to Ez jus tell thm to leav. so she dus an as im goin to get thm to throw them out sum guy appears at th window...jus sum random salesman an my Aunties nieghbour...tht iv nvr spoke to in my life. This is a second storey window an there jus standin there. So me an Ez go down to speak to th guy an i'm throwin one of th guys out. I go upstairs to see where the other is an he's walkin slow. As he goes passd Ez he starts chokin her so i run an knock him off. So he starts on me...again. He runs at me, i run at him he tries to pick me up bt i throw him to th ground an kick him an thn throw him out th house. At this time im so freaked out tht i wake up thinkin fuk did tht happen or wht cos at times in the dream im thnkin tht th things tht happened were a dream bt this was real so wake up confused an a bitg scared. I chek my fone an its haf 1. in the afternoon tho. So i slept for 12 hrs but felt lyk these 2 weeks of events. Actually a bit scared tht sum wer lyk true thngs tht i want to happen an sum ar th exact opposite to wht is happenin now. They say a dream only lasts 20 seconds. I reckon tht tht one lasted at least 5 minutes. It was really wierd lyk tht ep of smallville where clark sleeps for 2 weeks an thnks his dreams are reality. So anyways party tomorow...wonder if i do start on him...or if i tell anyone bout th dream....or if i try to get with Ez...or Han.....or if ill get my stupid diagonal sunburn, tht is only on haf my body, out. The decisions. If this is a grower why cant we take things slower The Star maker's gonna make you sad the dream maker's gonna make you mad I dream your dream for you an now your dream is real. How could you look at me as if i was just another one of your deals

So ye jus in from work....been ther fo 6 hours, pretty tired nw lyk bt wot evs. In the middle of exams th nw, ther ok...if they cn be tht is. Bt 1 left :) Sittin wachin Batman forever. its so rock an roll its unreal lyks. I love rock an roll stuff, its so cool. Its shit bt still amazin an cool. Stuff thts retro an used to be awsum bt now its shit haha. I luv retro aswel. Lyk this head band i used to wear...i jus luvd wearin it bt no one wud leav me alone werain it...either flickin it or fukin dissin me for wearin this piece of elastic. Bt hey dnt need to see them again cos i finishd school :J. Sos i started wachin Ross Noble again an i thnk it has actually mad me funnier...well sorta. Ill say sumthn tht i normally wudnt an it will be funny. Well i spose thts my two for today...im pretty tired nw its lyk 2 so im off. Its so rock and roll to be alone he catches raindrops from his window they remind him how we fall