Wow. Interesting looking back 7 years, at me. Lucky guess at log-in info (last log in 7 years). I can see traces of that young, rebelious and unhappy teen and also traces of me now. Made me realise just how mature I was back then. 

I've done the whole education thing, travelled extensively, got a degree, got a job, got a house. Had a long term partner, lost a long term partner, laughed, cried and learned that things happen, people change and that's stuff that's out of your own personal control. Embrace change and be there when people need you. 

I pulled over tonight when some girl was honking her horn and had her hazard lights on. She was driving a light blue renault clio. Her boyfriend was smashing the shit out of that thing, he broke the windshield and was trying to pull the fucking door off of its hinges. People were driving by. Couldn't not stop. He walked off, up the hill when I got out of the car. She was terrified. I moved her car and waited with her until her father arrived, a young girl, R plates. 

Then I had decided on the car ride home that I wouldnt actually drink, seeing as I have been over endulging for a long time now, directly related to "AM" I guess, but I stopped at the offie anyway. Douglas Green Pinotage and now vodka. Sigh.  At least I'm not on the cider. 

I'm going to look back at this in another 7 years, tonight I was working on Supersonic Modern. "Mooncat" was still very much in your head and you were in Barcelona. 

I'm also stuck on Warpaint right now. Pretty fantastic. 

If your not a happier person in 7 years time, I'm going to kick your ass. Which pretty much translates to kicking my own ass in 7 years if I'm not a happier person. 

Please be happier Ryan, please do something more. Me suelto en el deshacer.

Sitting in work here, just discovered that my second cousin died yesterday. Didnt know her, so Im not gonna grieve. The funeral is tomorrow, so I will go just to pay my respects to the family. Bored and tedious amounts of work to do, all to be submitted for the 20th December. I couldnt be bothered with it at all. Discovered a nice band called Air Traffic, although they're generally the complete opposite of what I normally listen to, I seem to like them. Check them out.

Should be in bed, 20 to 1, work at 8 tomorrow morning. Listening to some pearl jam - favourite track being Jeremy. Had a laugh reading through some other peoples journals there, ranting about their lives .. As if anyone gives a fuck, what you people dont seem to understand is that life is hard, it always has been and always will be, and the only way you people will ever be happy is by realising this. If life was always fine and dandy what lessons would be learned, we'd all be uneducated and un evolutionised Tools. LOL

Up for work in time for once this morning. Freezing cold here, just got up and stuck of some KMFDM, looked up the lyrics of stray Bullet, in a wild attempt to try and understand why that Jokela High School shooter would use the song in his video ... Came up with nothing, well, maybee the lyrics, but the stupid fucker rants about how humanity is overated and that no one understands true meanings .. hypocrite, the lyrics have nothing to do with murder. Just about to leave for work, Deftones and Tool on the mp3 player, so should keep me occupied on the Bus.