Confessions. I can't remember the sex. I still like you, and I think I like him too. You're not that hot. I cut over you once. I wish I was unique. I wish I was special. I'm easily swayed.

To no bullshit You can never make someone believe in something. Sure, you can influence them, but if they don't believe it then they don't believe it. If you love her then you should just accept and respect all of her beliefs and decisions.

Yeah, I like doing quizzes. Maybe you don't, but sometimes these really help me get myself. And they're entertaining, which is a plus. XD

TEN FAVORITES 01. televison show: Bones, probably 02. flower: I love roses. Everyone does, I know. 03. color: Don't care. 04. sport: It was soccer, but I quit. I do quite enjoy hockey. 05. mall: ... 06. music: Acoustic, alternative, indie ... Not really sure. 07. food: I never know the answer to this. I get different cravings ALL the time. 08. season: Autumn 09. animal: Wolves, probably 10. city: Mine. :) TEN FACTS 01. hometown: Secret. 02. hair color: Brown 03. hair length: Shoulder length 04. hair style: Curly 05. eye color: Brown 06. shoe size: 7/8 I think 07. mood: Blank 08. orientation: Haha, I don't know. 09. available: Yeah. Good or bad, I don't know. 10. lefty/righty: Righty TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE 01. have you ever been in love: Everyone thinks that they've been in love when they're crushing. Tbh, no. I don't think I have 02. do you believe in love: Yes 03. why did your last relationship fail? My best friend got bored of me, I guess 04. have you ever been heartbroken: I guess.. 05. have you ever broken someone’s heart: Maybe. 06. have you ever fallen for your best friend: Friends best friend? Yes. =\ 07. have you ever loved someone but never told them: I don't think so 08. are you afraid of commitment: shit scared 09. have you ever had a secret admirer: Nope 10. do you believe in love at first sight: No, that's lust TEN THINGS: THIS OR THAT 01. love or money: Love 02. hard liquor or beer: Not sure. I drink lollywater coz I'm a pussy. Teen alcohol, really. 04. one night stands or relationships: Um, depends what I'm looking for. Atm, relationship with a certain someone. 05. televison or internet: Internet 06. pepsi or coke: coke 07. wild night out or romantic night in: wild night out, atm. But with *him*, romantic night in 08. colored or black and white pictures: Big fan of black and white for serious, colour for fun 09. phone or in person: person 10. aim or myspace: myspace TEN HAVE YOU EVERS 01. have you ever been caught sneaking out: Yes. =\ 02. have you ever skinny dipped: Mope. :( 03. have you ever done something you regret: All the time 04. have you ever bungee jumped: I want to. 05. have you ever been on a house boat: Yep 06. have you ever finished an entire jaw breaker: Haha, a smallish one 07. have you ever wanted someone so badly it hurt: Yeah, haven't we all? 10. have you ever been caught by your parents doing it? Not *it*, haha. Caught me with a guy though. TEN EMOTIONS 01. are you missing someone right now: a little 02. are you happy: blank 03. are you talking to anyone right now: nope 04. are you bored: a little 05. are you german: that's not an emotion, wtf 06. are you irish: neither is that 07. are you french: or that 08. are you Italian: and this. 09. are your parents still married: nope - and not an emotion. Causes mixed emotions though, haha 10. do you like someone right now: Yes

1. Who did you last shoot a dirty look at? Ex-best friend. She comes to talk to me, and then acts as if I’m not there. 2. What kind of car do you drive? No license. :( 3. Have you ever had a garage sale? Yeah, sold a dolls house my Uncle made for about $100. It was beautiful, I really regret it now. 4. What color is your iPod? Silver 5. What kind of dog do you have? I don’t know. He’s not, we got him from the animal shelter. He has three legs. I hate dogs. 6. What's for dinner tonight? I had some sort of mushroom loaf thing 7. What is the last drink you drank? Milk. XD 8. Last time you were sick? Like vomiting/. Last week. Ah, the joys of drinking 9. How long is your hair? Shoulder length when dry [it’s curly…] 10. Are you happy right now? I’m kind of blank, tbh 11. What did you say last? I don’t care, I think. 12. Who came over last? I have no idea. No one’s really been and visited me in a while. 13. Do you drink beer? Only if there’s nothing else. 14. Have your brothers or sisters ever told you that you were adopted? Yes, I’ve never actually believed it though. 15. What is your favorite key chain on your keys? No keys… 16. What is in your pocket? Phone. 17. Who introduced you to your boyfriend or girlfriend? I don’t have one, except my *crush* is by friends best friend. Of course, it’ll never work out. 18. Who is the last person you had a phone conversation with? My dad. I told him I quit soccer. :-S 19. What DVD is in your DVD player? Perfume, or Fight Club 20. What's something fun you did today? Laughed. :) 21. What do you think of when you hear the word "meow"? Cats … 22. What are you listening to right now? Muse – Butterflies and Hurricanes 23. What have you had to drink so far today? Milk, water, alcohol? [yes, on a school day …] 24. When is your birthday? July 25. What's the area code for your cell phone? 64 … I think. I honestly have no idea. 26. Where did you buy the shirt you're wearing now? Opshop. 27. Is there anything hanging from your rear view mirror? No car… 28. How many states in the U.S. have you been to? None 29. What are you going to do after this? Music, probably 30. What is something you need to go shopping for? A bra, alcohol and new friends. ;-) 31. Do you like pickles? No 32. How about olives? Nope 33. What is your favorite kind of gum? I don’t know … 34. Do you have any tan lines? Yeah, on my legs, arms and er, chest… 35. Do you remember the name of your kindergarten teacher? Paula, I think. Maybe. 36. Who was the last person to call you baby? I have no idea… 37. When you're at the grocery store do you used the self checkout? Usually. 38. Has anyone ever sang to you? Yeah. :) 39. Has anyone ever given you roses? I don’t think so… 40. If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive? Maybe. 41. What is your favorite color? I don’t really know, tbh 42. What color are your eyes? Brown 43. What is a compliment you receive way too often? “You have lovely hair” 44. How tall are you? 5'1” I think 45. Who was the last person to say they loved you and when? My dad, I think. On the phone. 46. Do you like your parents? Yes. I do. But sometimes, you know … Teenage angst. 47. Why did your last relationship end? My best friend stopped liking me, and that was the only best friend I had ever had 48. Who was the last person you said you loved on the phone? I’m not affectionate. At all. 49. Where is the furthest place you've traveled? Australia. 50. Which do you prefer, to eat or sleep? Sleep. 51. Do you look more like your mom or your dad? I don’t know. Both equally, I guess. 52. How long does it take you to shower? 15 minutes, maybe 20 on a bad day. 53. Can you do splits? I did gymnastics when I was five. I was the worst in the class. So, no. 54. Can you use the grill? Um … Idk 55. Are you flexible? Not really 56. What movie do you want to see? Donnie Darko, right now. 57. What did you on New Years Eve 2007? Got drunk on the beach. Mom found me. Me and my friend were in SHIT 58. Was your mom a cheerleader? Lol. No. But she was popular – more popular than I’ll ever be. 59. What is the last letter of your middle name? e 60. How many hours of sleep did you get last night? 6? 61, Do you wear your seatbelt in the car? Depends how far we’re driving 62. Are you scared of flying? Not reakky, 63. What do you sleep in? Underwear usually. Maybe a shirt if it’s cold. 64. Do you have any tattoos? No, but I want some. XD 65. Have you ever been to Los Angeles? Nope 66. What jewelry do you wear all the time? Tunnels in ears. + earings 67. What is your favorite song at the moment? I’m not actually sure… 68. What song do you HATE? Not a huge fan of rap songs. 69. Do you like chocolate? Yep 70. Are you easy to get along with? Usually. Except I’m so shy… 71. Any up coming events you're excited about The wrestling on Thursday, drinking on Saturday.

Ten things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now. [I got this off justanotheruser]. 1. We've never had much in common, and we're supposed to be best friends, haha. That's ok, but now you're disrespecting me and my decisions. I can't change who I am, and neither can you. We've grown apart, and now all we have to talk about it me being a 'dirty lesbian'. Well I'm not a lesbian, I'm bisexual, and still - there's nothing wrong with that. I don't get why you just can't accept me for who I am. 2. You're probably my best guy friend. It's weird, you know. You want more than that, I don't. You're always trying to touch me, and you don't seem to get that no means no. You feel me up and then get shitty when I don't let you. What? I'm sorry, I did feel the same way, except now you just make me feel disgusting. I'm sick of been treated like a piece of meat. Oh, and I think I love your best friend. 3. We've grown apart. It sucks, really. You're so much fun, but then sometimes you hurt me so, so much. I thought I'd be happy when we stopped being so close, but then I realized that now I've really got no one there for me. I'm sorry if it seemed like I didn't make an effort. I'm just scared of rejection, and I hate making the first move. I really do enjoy being friends with you, except you seem to care more about what other 'cool' people think of you over your own friends. Oh, and please stop liking all the guys I like. Because you always get them. 4. I thought we were close, but you blocked me. Haha. It's a stupid thing to say, but I thought we were almost like best friends, and to find out you didn't want to talk to me really hurt. But never the less, you're always there for me. Except sometimes I just think my problems aren't 'interesting' enough for you. 5. You've changed. You've kinda gone ... Hard, you know? Tough. Mean. Now it's like you don't care about anyone except yourself. But I guess you're still there if I need your help, and you're heaps of fun. But please, stop bitching about all my other friends. 6. You're trying to hard to be emo, but you're beautiful. Thankyou for listening to me all those times. You're fun, but you did make me feel uncomfortable last night with the boob grabbing. I mean yeah, I'm bisexual, but I really can't handle being touched like that right now. 7. You're fun, but you're a bad friend sometimes. It's kinda like you don't care, as long as you get something out of it. Yeahh, I really wish you'd just own up and apologize. 8. I think I like you. You're so nice. I've only properly known you for about a month, but you seem to get it. You know, how I felt so used when he kept on doing it. You even gave me advice. You know, it made me almost cried. Because someone actually cared. You're so interesting, I think I really like you. Too bad I'm probably too young for you. 9. You're overdramatic. You're trying to be emo. It's pathetic. There's nothing wrong! Stop fucking lying to me. Your dad is not dead, you're not being sent to Canada, EVERYTHING ELSE YOU SAID WAS NOT TRUE. Your lies don't impress anyone except that bitch you've got on your arm, and she's worse than you. Stop telling everyone you're suicidal. Stop SCRATCHING your arms. Stop going on about your happy pills. 10. Fuck you. You didn't care, you have no idea how much that hurt. Best friends? I'll never believe anyone who says that ever again. You were a bully. You and her, yeah, I remember you hitting me and kicking me. Pushing me. Yelling names at me. Whatever. Fuck you.

It sucks, you know, waiting for emails that might never come. You sit there thinking "maybe they don't want to talk to me any more." Because being left behind sucks. No one likes leftovers. Fuck, and I'm exactly the same, because I'll treat you like dirt when you're not around. But haha, I'm not a beautiful, blonde chairleader or any other superior stereotype. I'm basically at the bottom. Thnx.

Ranting and raving about friends. About boys. About things no one really cares about - not even me. I guess it was only because I needed to get it all out, so I could sort through it I suppose. 　　　　I don't think I'll be writing anything deep and 　　　　meaningful on here, but I'm sick of whining. Whinging. 　　　　Moaning. Just needed to throw that out there.

Everything's deleted. 　　　　　What a shame.