Ok nothing much today. Just got a feeling to get some shit off my chest.Anyway,maybe i should just note down what do i excatly listen to after all this is a "music" site ain't it. So here i go: THE LIBERTINES,RADIOHEAD,placebo,muse,sonic youth,iamx,interpol,the strokes,razorlight,interpol, the beatles,jeuse and the mary chain,joy divison, Patrick wolf,David Bowie...

Been fucking ages since i post my last entry. Lately, i been thinking, i really wanna grow up. i'm practically watching the time slowly passing me by cause i really couldnt wait to be free. But sometimes i question myself does this all really matters. Now or later. Beacuse there are million of time i always seemed to be expecting things and situation that can never really happen in reality.So again the truth is sad.I don't want to sound like i'm a fucking emo cause i hate all thoses sort of crap. But understand life is hard, its difficult. Maybe i made it that way. P.s. Thom yorke thanks for being alive. I love you'

Denying is the most important lesson a human being can ever learn in life. well simply because we are brought up living that way. Well for example when your mum ask you a question and if you don't give her he correct answer...you are so damn fucking screwed...so one thing we got to learn in our life is bascially lie to ourselves and deny everything we feel.That way life would be great in it because nobody would get hurt...everyone around you would be happy we got to learn to get use to pain...

Right, so life so far is still the same.Really nothing much had change yet.I mean my feeling towards things in life.Oh i should say i getting really bored each day.Don't know why recently i heard of so many stories regarding death.Well it makes me feel depress...cant excatly describe how i feel.All i can say i keep thinking and wondering what the fuck i have done in my life...And the answer is NOTHING!Is like everyday i wake go school get home study...Seriously its empty.If tomorrow i'm gone today wont mean a thing.Why the hell ami studying for what the hell am i so concern about every fucking thing in life.Afterall its the same.Aint't it?we will all fade away.one of my dearest friend will be leaving me tomorrow.I fucking hate it!

well i have been trying really hard not say fuck all the time...but then again FUCK! Fuck world Fuck people Fuck situation Fuck society Fuck anyone who had been shit to me Fuck fakers Fuck posers Most importantly FUCKME! I hate the world today.I just hate it.But most of all i hate myself for who i am and what i have become.I hate myself for acting like a fucking poser and i hate people who try to correct me.Fuck them they have no rights. But then again of course they do. What in the world "all you need is love" I have no love no matter how i pretend I cant love and will never be loved

Its the start of the new year 2008...Fuck got to go back to school again.Arghhh!What suck the most is that i'm taking my o' level this year.Which means more studying!terrible isnt it?Anyway i hope this year would do me good.Shit would not keep falling for me again. Listening to kyo "ce soir"... MAY GOD BLESS ME!

Oh i certainly hate moment like this...feeling really dull,retarted,upset ,tired errr...upset.Nvm fuck it!i dont even know what i am feeling now.Simply just not much in the mood to do any damn thing.But i guess time like this are much better than being with people.I must be really stupid.I guess nobody in the world would have such...dumb feeling like me now. Somehow just like before i want to grow up.I guess by that time i would get done studying.i would be able to do my own shit.But the journey to there seem so long and winding. Till then,I would still be stuck with all my fucking depression and insecurities. *I dont think i would ever realise vienna waits for me.*

My first post today will be:"LIFE CAN BE SO FUCKED UP"!