I struggle to know you. I have seen you for years. Hours invested for what? I never knew how you felt about me. but when you said "you know I love you" I knew I had been tricked and that you had to die. you tricked me into loving you. you were just a joke. That i was the butt of. when will I say its done. That we evolved into something that must end. Why am i waiting for the sea to drag us in when I can just crush this sham of a castle. That now I feel like I made alone. Like michealangelo I made me a stone man. who is cold and heartless granite and flawless.

I fell into a void it was so big I thought it was nothing but it was a cave so I am patting the walls but I know there is no exit just deep darkness When I am tired I lay on its ground I am afraid I dare something to eat me come and get me come and find me but I am even more afraid of the darkness because it is nothing It cant digest but it devourers you it cant move but it surrounds you and I can hear it breathing as it takes me

I think I have someone elses hands. You see, I got my palm read. I learned nothing. It was really quit sad. I am not really the person he described. Not like what he was saying wasnt true but he didnt acknowledge that I was trying to repress those things. I am trying not to be what even my hands express. The fine creases that seem like nothing could they really describe anything.