Something bad is coming but its a secret. Dont tell anyone about the damage. I am not hurting. no no no. I am not mad. I really want to laugh. For the damage is going to be done. Its going to fall like an anchor from the sky on to my waiting enemy. Yes my enemy is waiting they think they are safe. But no they arent safe at all. They are far from safe. It doesnt really matter because here it comes. Its going to be bad.

Ive been anxious for the last few days. I dont know. I am looking for what I am afraid of. I am scared to turn a corner and for it to be standing there looking me dead in my face. I am looking for the akward heart ache and the after math of mass confusion. I am looking for what I miss or who. Maybe fear is just a symptom of missing. Maybe the cause of my anxiousness isnt fear at all. they think they are going to surprise me:I who do nothing but wait once I answered the phone,and the caller hung up- very clever They think they can scare me. I am always scared. -Franz Wright

I heard before that god hates a heart that devises evil My mind reels with thoughts of harming you but my heart is in a different place. My heart is telling just drop it. Sweet satisfaction. Devastating if I dont do anything at all. The best revenge is being better than you. The best revenge is betraying you. The best revenge is destroying you. Putting your self esteem through the loop. I will destroy. Somehow Karma will do it for me.