Hey. i decided i'm going to stop trying to be super punctual and using the right conventions or whatever that shit is called. i'm just going to type whatever. it's summer. my summer has been boring-ish. and disappointing. mostly due to this girl. but whatever. i'm so over that. so through waiting. anyways, i went to airzona for two weeks to visit. may 27 - june 10. it was decent. lots of people changed. and became douches. two of my best friends became "thugs." wiggers. one of them was still as tight as i remember, and it was really cool. it was odd seeing all these people i used to remember looking so different. everyone had changes. so had i, for that matter. i felt like i didn't fit in, honestly. i get there and everyone is dressed in the most expensive clothes, the most expensive brands, all thuglife brands at that too. i was just this kid from nebraska, in jeans and a t shirt. i even talked different then they did. not so much an accent, but just the things we said. since i got back i've mostly just been chilling. doing nothing. going to bed at two and waking up at one. the good stuff. i've still got some things to sort out.

I wish I had kept posting. Because so much has happened, I don't even want to type it all up. life is good

-Twenty six days since my last entry. -And booooy, it feels like a shitload has happened. -I know I talked a little about Jenny, and I think that's basically over. I have a new interest. And I thinking, for the sake of privacy i shoudln't use real names anymore. If you know who I'm tlaking about, then you know who you are. I doubht anyone I have the slightest connection with will ever see this, but just in case. -So, lets call this new interest Pam. Pam has told me she and her boyfriend have been having troubles. Her boyfriend of ten months, that is. She told me she doesn't know how much longer she can date him. I've always kind of had a slight attraction to Pam, shes funny, cute, easy to get along with, lots of things. But I don't know, lately my "slight attraction" has grown into a pretty big attraction. I've been thinking about her alot. Probably too much actually, she is dating someone else after all. We've hung out a few times the past week, and it's been really fun. We went to explore this abandoned house next to mine (if you know me at all you probably will figure out everything about now). We were there with another friend, and we had this big plan to run away from him inside the house. We did, and while hiding and walking around she often grabbed onto me. I bet it was probably just because she was scared, but who knows. So I reached back and grabbed her hand, and after a bit she kind of maneuvered our little hand holding into like, a laced fingers hold. You know what I mean? I probably wouldn't have thought much of it, but once she did that i couldn't help but think. Yeah, its just holding hands. Silly right? I don't know. I can't help but think that maybe on some level she likes me. Why else would she tell me about her problems with her boyfriend, lets call him Roy (office themed if you haven't noticed). I don't know what to dooooooooooooo. -Ahaha, I bet i'm just overreacting so much. Who knows if she even likes me. Maybe she just trusts me and had no one else to tell. Maybe i overanalyze too much. -Shoot me.

-Dangg, it's been forever since my last entry. I keep forgetting/procrastinating, just like I do with everythign else. -Todayyy is a B day of course, which is why I decided to get back on here. I have nothing better to do in B8 english it seems. So today, before school my mom took me to Scooter's. Gooood stuff. I got a small white moca cappachino but didn't finish it before we got to school, so I let my mom bring it home and I plan to drink it once I get home. Came to school, had a brief chat in the Viking Center as usual, and then went to Lifetime sports. I enjoy that class quite alot, even though we are doing ping pong now. Ping pong is not one of my strengths. Me and Tyler were on a team and we didn't really do very good besides when playing "EXTREME PING PONG" where you basically hit it as far as you can every time. We broke like 3 ping pong balls, haha. The only problem was that Eric Jones kept following us to every table we played at, and it started to bother me. Sooo then, went to geography. Did some work about borders and talked about Israel. Israel is badass as hell, not gonna lie. They are this tiny little country but they beat everyone's ass, and they are building this giant wall to block out the Palestinians. In engineering we are working with fisher techniks, which are pretty cool/fun to do. Then I came to this class, where we are going to give a mock trial at some point or another. I feel a little nervous typing this up, i feel like the person to the right of me might notice and be like ZOMG WHAT ARE YOU DOING. IS THAT A JOURNAL? -So, since my last entry I guess some interesting stuff has happened. Things seem to be kind of weird with Aryannah lately, although it's probably just me overreacting like I always do. Who knows. I think I have a slight interest in this girl named Jenny. She is alot cooler than most girls I've met, i don't exactly know what it is about her yet. I went to middle school with her, we have fun talks about how sucky it was ahah. I really like her...opinions on things? I don't know I guess it's the way she acts. I kind of hope it leads somewhere, who knows. I think we might hangout this weekend which would be pretty cool.

-Hooray, entry number two. I noticed how tabs or spaces don't show up, so to show my new paragraphs I'm going to use "-". -I kind of skipped about.. six days or so since my last entry. I thought I would do it everyday, but my last entry was on Friday and I forgot about it over the weekend. On Monday in this class I tried but the site was down, so I couldn't do it. -So basically today was pretty boring/typical. B2 was gym, played badmitton, owned the best team in the gym, making me and Walter badmitton champions ahah. B4 was geography, took this really easy test and ate brownies. End of b4. B6 was amazing ahah. We made a helmet out of white cardboard or something, and a spear out of a broom and balsa wood. We even made a shield out of a lunch tray. It was badass. -I got my haircut yesterday, I think it makes me look like a British boy. -On that note, goodbye.

-Hello. -I don't really do journals. This little online one seems nice though, so I thought I'd try it out. That way one day I can look back on it and think of how immature I used to be, heh. I've always wanted soem sort of journal for that purpose since Jenny gave me the Idea, but I've never really been able to stick with anything. Typical. -So right now I'm sitting in Mr. Buckners B8 English class, finished with my work. We just finished a short play called Twelve Angry Men. I actually thought it was really interesting, but I gotta say it had a pretty shitty ending. One of the jurors wouldn't admit the boy who suppossedly stabbed his father was really not guilty, so they left the jury room or whatever and left it up to the next set of jurors. That to me was just dumb, the last remaining juror was stupid and stuborn, and just didn't want to show his mistake by saying he the boy was guilty. Good book in my opinion. -Today has been decent. In the Viking Center today, Walter and Trevor brought in these flyers of Lily with some alligator type thing over her face. It said "Beware the ferocious Croc!" It was actually kind of funny, but pretty horrible doing that to someone. They passed them out and people set them up around everywhere. Then, when we were walking to gym Melissa saw them. Melissa, who just happens to be good friends with Lilly(I am probably spelling this wrong everytime.) Mo said that "If I see those pictures anywhere else besides the garbage can, Lilly and I are coming for you." Scary. So that basically ruined the whole thing. Then we went to gym and dominated in badmitton as usual. -Then went to geography, watched some video on boy from Africa coming to the US. Honestly their life in Africa was better than in the US. -And unfortunately, it's 2:48 so I have to cut this short.