So I've decided to take the lonely road for a while, see what lonelyness has to offer. Although is she ever decides to be with me I'll jump through the loop and play good boyfriend like I've always done. Anyways I've decided to make myself unavailable to anyone. [I think I'm going to write day by day journals about not wanting] I've been single for over 7 months...[not by choice] Now it will be. I was going to describe myself..[physically] in this journal entry. I've decided not to this time. I will in the next one. Plus I've got some important things to get off my chest. Later, in good time. For now this was a pointless journal I just had to feed me addiction=] My next entry will be worthwhile. Well to me anyways.

Today, I have brushed my teeh 4 times. I love the way it makes my mouth feel. I'm stlll awfully bitter about last night. But I'm going to have to deal with it. I'll never be over her, but I'll have to live with those facts... [I just contradicted my last entry so bad] I need to find a better past time. I want to write poetry again but everything I write about will revolve around heartache... [how cliché right?] I'm in the mood for chineese food, maybe some chowmien? Orange chicken always sounds good. Odds are I won't eat today, or tomorrow. I had to force myself to eat lastnight... [no I don't have a eating disorder] To hell with Las Vegas. This barren desert. This place is made for hopefull toursit trying to hit it big. Oh well this is probably going my last entry for a while. Maybe not, who knows? I don't. I don't even know myself. Anywho I hope people feel better than I do.

Today I found out Fred left Taking Back Sunday.. [I know I'm late] I haven't been keeping up with TBS to much since Louder Now came out. That album wasn't to great. I'll miss Fred of course, but now I have to listen to- Where You Want To Be. After that I'll probably listen to- Tell All Your Friends. Odds are I might spiral down into depressing memories. Crying myself to sleep tonight? I think so. What a fun night ahead! Anyways TBS is calling me on my ipod and I have to answer... [Everyone should listen to- Tell All Your Friends so I won't be to only one getting teary eyed when "there's no I in team" comes on] I write more tomorrow morning.. [For those of you who care to know what happens tonight]

Last night I played football, today I pay for it, I'm sore =/ I was watching dr. Phil, a 14 year old girl has slept with over 40 men. The way Americas youth is today, it sickens me. I've actually had offers of "hooking up" with younger girls over myspace. Of course I've never replied I'm 18 and these girls are 15. >.< I'm glad I don't have sex anymore.. Or do drugs... or drink [no I'm not straightedge] [On a random note] Lately I've been flirting with my ex-girlfriend, I don't like to though. I feel as if I'm betraying myself. OJ Simpsons' trial is in las vegas, quite the media frenzy eh?