good weekend :D no fights had an amzing time with dot... see last post we ended up watching trainspotting we were so fucking high i want to know what is it when ur brain goes like that.. and its like being off your face, but youvve had nothing its great but im so wrecked today lucas is back though i missed him so much, and he looks so different finally i have an ally another person filled with teenage angst.. and oh my god.. a min of their own theyr hard to come by in my place welllie has turned into a clone of mother dearest and dad is just her puppet these two weeks have been harrowoing, with dot and ell and taylor and lain and im crashing too i started cutting i really need a new blade next tim i cut im gonna put ink in it.. make a tatto it works i really need sleep

well so far we: saw the movie met them people missed the fair went to your house left ate those purple berries went home for the money got driven to the bay saw an octopus couldnt find moulders caught the tram to maccas went back to yours again made some important descisions on the way like: ib sucks, come to my school ben is funny fthe frozen coke was air at urs we tried to dred my hair went in the spa with the multicoloured flashing lights forgot about earth hour decided not to get drunk decided food was not for us now.. the rest is up to you what should we do now? a. watch a scary movie b get back in the spa c try n dred ma hair some more d. go for a walk e get u to come here f.. fuck g imrunning out of ideas h. cook a cake full of vodka i drink a cake full of vodka j. ??? k l die m n o p q r s t u v w x y z

so.. i started cutting again real shallow i like those light red lines i want to show them off tell people, hey, look how beautiful i can be im worried about dot the thing with taylor didnt work out she sounds wrecked like i am when i get depressed i dont want that for her im scared shell start cutting or something and i cant see her its hard and so wierd i can see now what people are up against rise against concert tonight im not going have fun jamie and jimmi today i was wearign secretary glasses apperently they make me really sexy its wierd how things like that change people hopefully going to the footy this weekend maybs ill c jamie there i have his jumper atm, should remember to give that back REALLY wanna hook up with him, i was talking to jimmi bout it he was saying oh just flirt massivley with him i feels wierd tho i dont wanna just throw myself at him i really should start the hw but i really cbf did you kno?? ma year has had the highest amount of RAs for sase in the history of ma school nand its only term 1 :P so many peopl are gonna drop out i want to, i just cant cyas

someone actually replied to one of my posts wow.. people actually read the shit i write oh dear. i have decided. im gonna get my nipple pierced.. when i turn 16... a month away :) i cannot be fucked at the moment i just want to drop our. hook up with jamie. kind of totally reject society, i dont feel terrible. i just feel normal. im kind of sick of being called a slut. by everyone. lets run away. i want to just fuck off. lets leave. i need daniels pannel van. he could drive it. i could sit in the back n shred my arms. i want them sliced. i need to get back into practice. i am fucked i know. mmm.. i could do with some samedi. its good. i shloud sleep but i cant be bothered moving. no school tommorow anyway so what does it matter?? FUCKKK>. iv just realised that this whole blog has been about me. stuid fat selfish cunt that i am... get off ur ass and excersise bitch lose the fat.... stop being self obsessed.. stop pretending to be who your not SCHIZO WHORE!!!!!

i was just hangign in a playground with ma bros i love playgrounds especially swings it made me think... what is it about play grounds??? they are such cool places for little kids during teh day n then at night people use them as places fro getting drunk n high n graffing.... is is sum wierd psycological thinG???? like somtthing bout childhood??? dunno.... anyway swings are fuN!!!

best weekend... we saw this great play called the revolution starts here then WOMAD.... best day of ma life i swear.. skankin to ska cubano moshing to cat empire sleeping listening to gurrumul n neil finn dancin like crazy freaks in the dark one day wasnt enough.. festival pass next year baby :) monday.. sleep.. sleep.. read on beach... sleep :) today.. athletics carnival blue hair :D chillin with jamie n mates taking photos.. laughing.. fightin :D soo good get home to a massive pile of homework... two tests tommorow... about 5000 wordds to write and an angry mother FUUUCKKK!!!!!! can she never get off my back..??? i cannot be fucked dealing with this shit... if she starts yellin when i get home im leaving walk someplace else... i just have to get away same old story.. over and over again hey??? nothing ever fucking changes