This waking life moving were doing at school has sent me trppin…and made me thnk about my dreams a lot more… So I’m gonna take a bit of a detour from life and tell you about my dreams, Groan if you wish, stop reading if you want…. I just wanted to write them down before I forget them forever. A coupls of days ago Ihad this dream where me n jonty n lucy n ran went to the city n jonty n me left ran n luce n we went walking ariound the city lookin for the free postcards that are always around there and eventually we found this massive newsstand of them in the migration museum… That’s not weird for one of my dreams but then I told jonty about it the next day n he was like.. how do u no that I collect those postcards??? N Id had no idea he did, n wed never talked about i.. THAT’S weird hey?? A couple of months ago I had this dream, I was out with my family, looking at a waterfall () and I was texting this guy… as I do usually and I cant remember what the conversation was but every time my phone went off I could feel it vibrate and I reached under my pillow to get it, even though we weren’t at home. Then while I was having this conversation I woke up because my phone did go off. I looked at the message and it’d been sent like 3 hours ago and my phone had kept on going off while I had that dream. Like my mind was telling me I should wake up coz it had gone off but I was in too deep a sleep to actually move. Funny thing the subconscious hey? The other dream was from like 5 months ago but I still remember it quite well….And I suppose you don’t know me but my dreams are pretty trippy usually , but this is one of the more normal ones but it was epic, I woke up in the morning and was exhausted because of all the effort that had gone into the dream Here goes: So I was at school, as usual and I had to go home for some reason and my grandpa came and picked me up. I was in indo and I went to get my bag and on the way out Bu (my teacher) gave me my homework and then more work and she kept on talking to me and then I remembered all this stuff I’d forgotten so I had to go back and get it, then Bu gave me more and more work and this kept on going on and on, it was one of these dreams that you can never seem to escape. Then suddenly there was an explosion. Someone had blown up the girl’s toilets in Pargeter. Well, I couldn’t leave after that (also the whole school had been made to meet down in the Pargeter car park so we couldn’t get out anyway) so, I went to check it out and found my friends up there too, just talking about what had happened. Then Almaz arrived, which was weird since she lives in Queensland now. We were looking at the toilets, which had a perfect charred circle out of them but hadn’t affected the classrooms on either side. I remember talking to her and saying “Finally someone’s blown up the toilets, it was only a matter of time, I was going to do it myself but I never got round to it, maybe we’ll actually get some more toilets now.” To which she replied “ what are you going to do for now though? You know there’s no more girl’s toilet’s at this school” The conversation kind of petered out because I noticed Hannah had started hooking up with Stewie, THAT was strange, compared to someone blowing something up. Then everyone started hooking up and I got bored so I walked off and ran into Jonty. He was bored too. So we decided to leave school and go shopping, for some reason to Woolies at Stirling. And somewhere along the way we decided it would be a good idea to go out for a while, but we had to do the shopping first. So we were shopping and we bought cauliflower, bread and milk and one of those ball things, you know, that stretch in and out and are brightly coloured, though this was from the cheap shop in the arcade. And after our shopping adventure we walked to the Steamroller park where we met this guy sitting on a wall, I couldn’t remember his name but I knew he was my school captain when I was in year 7 so I told him that and he disagreed and said, no he went to Mercedes and that he knew Declan and Henez. Then Declan and his brother walked past, so we asked him, if the guy went to Merc, and they were pretty sure he didn’t. So we all started singing the Mercedes song and somewhere after that I woke up. Strange huh? I won’t tell you anymore ones, like being in a concentration camp that was a church and going back and forth to the op shop next door to find little girls dresses and fur coats to keep people warm and having to beg the guy in charge, who just happened be Luke but also Hitler and he agreed as long as I gave him the lollypop I was eating. Or the one were we had to swim across a sea of oil (like a deep fryer) but there was a grill on top of it so it hurt and there were crows trying to eat us. Or the one from a couple of days where me and a couple of friends wagged school and ran into old teachers, one who gave me his shirt and then had to leave because the train was there, then we went and visited a hospital and had a party but then some teachers who realised we were wagging came to find us and we had to escape so I went all through the hospital and then finally jumped out a window with a face mask on to get outside and then I met up with my friends who’d just climbed down a chimney and walked out through the doors to get outside. Sorry… I started blabbering, but ill tell people my dreams and they be like, oh that’s soooooo weird, in my dream last night I rode my horse…

oh.. luke wants to get with me again... whats new????

I feel so crap at the moment.
Im pretty depressed and I keep on having these headaches which I think are a way of dealing with it if that makes sense I can dull that pain with pain killers without dealing with anything emotional

School is terrible ran is killing me
She is so ignorant, has no idea thinks she can screw with me n ill always b there,,,, i wont

I just made myself throw up..
just a bit
It was disgusting, but I feel slightly accomplished, iv never been able to actually throw up before when I tried

were studyine this movie called waking life about lucid dreaming
its so trippy and its affecting my dreams
Now sayonara…
Iv got a weekend full of homework, a massivley bruised leg and a single valentines day to look forward to…

schools back.. yr 11.. 40 degree heat everyday , overwhelmed completly iv had the shittest weekend.. i think my problem is that im too good at hiding how i feel.. no one actually knows when im feeling shit unless i tell them btu i wont coz i dont want to seem whiny.. friday was good.. was almost n a car crash that wouldve killed me.. but it didnt.. why?? stupid life when i was a kid i used to have nightmares all the time.. i still do but i used to lie in bed n say forget forget forget.. over n over an over agian.. till i forgot what id dreamed about .. i try that all the time now when my brain keeps up throwing memories at me that i just wanna forget but it doesnt work... i want out... anything.. death or medication seem to be the only answers i can think of.. at the moment im leanign towards a bottle of bleach....