:) i don't want to over think this i don't want to smother you i can't stop thinking about you i refuse to stop talking to you i promise to make no expectations too many bodies and no person

enchanting days like these... slow but not overbearing, airy and soft, completely polar. i'm too awake for the sun to be asleep. and i'm laying the opposite way in my bed, with my feet tapping against my headboard. another day i will never remember. but that's not bad, because today wasn't bad. and it wasn't quite familar but enough so to be an acquitance.

i am completely vacant in all aspects

the breeze gently ripples the surface of our lake you pedal quicker than me and we both laugh in a polite manner you ring me late and we speak for hours and i still don't quite comprehend your powers you knock me off with a single glance and decombust my brains your arms rest around my waist and i feel my heart beat so strong, sending waves to my finger tips. freckles dance along the bridge of your nose and for the first time my eyes are able to hold onto yours no blink able to tear them apart eternity passes, smiles fall and we gather our things in a pile we're almost back to reality when you turn to me you sigh and throw me off guard. "the sun does shine brighter than it used to. this is true, and as the moon i feel you have no clue. you're hidden so deep. i feel it impossible for this love to keep. this chapter will close, but this is not the end. for i shall dream of your rays in my sleep." i let you walk away, and we parted ways. my feet unable to maintain a pace. my body exploded into painful shrieks and i slept in my unmoved car for a week. and although you've let me gone. i'm i grandfather clock, forever beckoning for you to return. i'll strike twelve and frown at your lack of presence then continue to tock away until forever. only you can fill the void of this heart so forgotten other men are not you for this organ they do not rightfully possess. and as the days sadly pass my memory strengthens unable to forget and even after the day i pass as my body lies still under the earth no man will control me as you and in an afterworld unknown i will wait and continue to live for you and only you. a love so strong it makes me weak.

LIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE my weekends consist of the same shit i can't even differentiate one incomparison to the other. they've all been relatively fun and eventful. i wish i could handle my friends instead of dedicating all of my time to one at an individual time. and i'm also annoyed with the nonexsistence of my relationship status. i seriously suck at maintaining relationships. i wish i wouldn't roam so much and question everything because its biting me in the asssssss.