(BLAAAAAANK)

as the days pass our past slowly becomes forgotten for the better i'd say completely forget every intimate moment we shared because they never meant anything and the still don't mean anything and as the seconds tick away you become farther away a distant encounter lost in the sea of irrelevant events i feel most at home when i'm all alone i like sad movies with cynical endings my music makes me weep but in a good way because i like being sad it has become my new inhabitant and my new bestfriend

every move i make is crucial to communicating my future i sometimes wonder who controls my destiny is it cliche to say me or just a lie because i don't really believe it if i could control my destiny i wouldn't be another blue collared programmed bitch i'd be feeling zero gravity and catching rides with the whales in the sky i'd be in deep space, far from life as i know escaping a problem does not qualify as a solution but at this point this is my only resolution people destroy people people destroy me but i will stop being a victim i will stop being their victim i will stop being your victim as i set myself free

people leave and new ones come in it's the way of life and easy to adapt to keep the strings unraveled so they're easier to cut and even when you leave you're still there and when you come back it feels like you've never left and everytime i see you my heart pumps heroine through my body i hit an impowering high that'll never be understood with words but if you come a little closer i think you'll see where i'm coming from taking this step is something i think about before i sleep for hours upon hours meticulously planning every breath before i speak and even if we don't end up together, i'm glad i finally found someone who i'll forever remember, even if you were a self consumed asshole