My girlfriend of six months broke up with me on the ninth of this month. She said it was because we never "see or talk to each other". I told her things would be bad, and she said it would be fine. That we would work through them. My mom left the house, and when she got back I found out she was moving out of the house. So now I'm stuck here with my step mom. Which you know, that really dosen't bother me and keep me from getting sleep at night. What DOES is the fact that I gave Nikole everything. And yet got nothing. If anything I got used, again. I was so busy trying not to hurt her, I got hurt worse than ever. But I think I'm getting used to that. When you are forced to grow up fast, you mature fast. And I don't think she is where I am. She said she wanted a sign that I was ready to settle down with her.... What about ME?!? I think I was the one that needed the sign.... I mean... and I should have seen this coming way sooner too. I mean hell. She started hanging out with a group of GUYS! I mean.... And if that wasn't enough, I come over one day and she tells me to leave so she can go play foot ball with these guys. WTF?!? Like I said... I should have seen it. I had one person tell me she is a play. Another tell me she is using me, and another tell me to just break up with her. Did I listen to them? NO! Of COURSE not. I have to find out on my own. Like a fucking retard. What else is new. I mean come on. If I would have just done what Stephanie said I should do, and let her go. Tell her that when she is ready, she can come find me. When she decides what she wants she can come find me. But NO! I had to do things my way. AGAIN! So now I pay for not listening. She's trying to have all these people kick my ass... Trying to make me scared. And I won't have it. I'm not scared of anything her brother her uncle or her friends think they can do to me. I have a temper from hell. She has seen that. I threw her against a wall once. Because she violated my three rules. 1: Don't block my way. 2: Don't touch me. 3: Don't talk to me. And yet she did ALL THREE AT ONE TIME! So in my rage I did something about it. What can I say. You know. I mean you warn someone and then they do EXACTLY what you tell them not to do?!? How stupid can you get. Like I said. She dosen't know me as well as she thinks she does. And her stupid fuck of a boyfriend dosen't know SHIT about me no matter what he thinks he knows. So when he gets brave enough, I'll be waiting for him..... The only promise I broke to her was one. And that promise is "I will never leave you alone. The only thing that will make me leave you alone is my death". She's not worth my death. And I don't want her back. "Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me. But I won't give you the chance to fool me the third time." And I won't. She's a damn player. So while she moves from guy to guy to girl to guy to girl... Or what ever gender pattern she picks, always looking for something, but never finding it. Never able to be happy. I'm going to be married to a beautiful wife. Have beautiful kids. And live a HAPPY life. She said she wanted all that with me. And I thought I wanted it all with her. But I found out last night... I DON'T! So this is to her. Hope you and Blake have a great life Nikole. I hope things work out between you. And when Blake shows you what a monster he is, don't come runing to me. I told you what he would do to you. * Hands you a quarter * Call someone that cares.......