#17 Well, today I got the back bands of my braces taken off. It was a longer process than it should have been, though. They had a new girl do it >_< She was nice, though. We played a game at school, that was totally amazing. It was called "grim reaper day" and one of the grade's principals was dressed as the grim reaper, and if he comes into your class and gets you, you're dead, so you have to put white face paint on, and wear a sign that says "I can't talk. I'm just a memory!" and you couldn't talk until your 5th hour class. Each person has a little story that tells how they died. Tim died, and his story said: "My girlfriend hated my friends. She use to say that they would do me wrong and that I would see that she was right. They never pressured me to do the things they were doing, so I saw no wrong with hanging with them. We went to Shadow Lake where my friends began to party. Just like usual, I had to say no to the "E" they had and like usual they didn't pressure me. On the way home I had called my girlfriend and I told her everything that had happened that night. . . The last thing I remember was I heard my boyfriend yell, "Hey! Watch out!" and then a loud bang! They had found his thrown body under the semi over 50 feet away from the van. I was right!" Yup. He got into a car crash with his friends who were on drugs. Actually, when me and Paige read it, we thought his friends got mad at him, and ran him over, but...um....yeah, that's not what happened. LOL! I bugged him in gym class to try to make him talk, but he didn't. If you didn't talk, you got pizza in your 5th hour. I wanted to get killed, but I didn't. I wanted to at LEAST have someone else get taken out in my class so I could have seen the Grim Reaper, but whatever. This kid I really hate in Shane's 2nd hour ROTC class got taken out. Lucky betch. Well, today is Halloween, if you didn't already know. And that's totally awesome. Me and Paige are going trick-or-treating. And I'm excited. But we're not wearing costumes. I'm too old for that shit, I'm fo'teen. Besides, I don't need a costume to scare a turd out of a 7 year old. xx

#16 Well. Today was so boring I almost pissed myself just for the hell of it. This morning I took a picture of Shane for my mom. She hasn't seen him yet and we've been dating for nearly two months. She saw pictures of me and Dylan a WEEK before we were "official." He messed up his hair, and wouldn't smile, so he looks like a dork. What a douche. I started painting my pot today in Art Survey with under glaze. I'm using dark green right now, but it looks like light blue-green. It's kinda gross. In Journalism YESTERDAY my stupid dyke of a teacher moved my seat ALL THE WAY ACROSS THE ROOM as far away from Paige as possible! And I wasn't even FUCKING talking! I never talk to Paige unless we're allowed to at the end of class! And today I tried to sit next to her again, and after she moved me AND Miranda yesterday, she still made ME move and let MIRANDA stay and talk to Paige all hour! WHAT A BUTT LICK! So, for that, I didn't do my interview for class, which pissed her off pretty bad, and made the WHOLE class have to write down 15 different, extremely long questions to do a different assignment on, and she gave some of us zeros. THAT'S WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU PISS ME OFF. YOU CANNOT SEPARATE ME AND COOLWHIP. OUR LOVE CANNOT BE BROKEN. Whatever. She's a stupid vagina anyway. She actually told us yesterday that she PLANS on failing HALF the freaking class this quarter so that her class will be smaller! Paige is gonna fail anyway, because she sucks at journalism, her parents hate her complaining about the teacher all the time, and she just hates that class (even more than playing frisbee in GYM!). So, I'm gonna switch the class next semester. Hopefully something with Paige. And something easy. Even though I'm passing. I can't fail, though. I really need my credit. And my parents are super strict on grades, so...yeah. Gym was amazing. We had the nice sub (Zach. He lets us call him Zach. What a guy, eh?), and our tiny little class had the ENTIRE gym (upper AND lower!) all to ourselves to play knockout, or 21! But Tiffany....has some problems. She has to go to the hospital to get tested for something really serious, and I'm pretty worried about her. Algebra was....sucky. I hate that I never turn in my assignments. Math is just TOO HARD. Shane helped me all hour, and didn't get any of his assignment done, which is sweet, but I really wish he could keep up his grade, too. Comm Arts was better than usual. We had a sub again, today. She's sorta mean, EXTREAMLY strict, but she likes me, 'cause I'm one of the quiet kids. So, that's good. She says she hates it when they mix up the quiet kids with the bad kids in classes. And I wonder why? No, really, I'm really confused on that. I mean, sure, it'd be great to have a class full of quiet kids, but then you'd be stuck with one class full of little bastards that don't shut up. Would you want that? Not me. No, Sir. Lunch was absolutely histerical. In Algebra (my 4th period) we got the first issue of our school newspaper "The Spyglass." It was awful. And Lainie, Teressa, and Mollie spent all lunch period criticizing it, and making fun of the people who wrote it. I read an article in there about the show "Rock of Love" and was....offended. I take it as though they were calling me stupid, because it said that it had a predictable ending. I thought it was a surprise (a GOOD surprise) that he chose Jes over Heather! I was so excited and happy! But I guess I was stupid not to see it coming, eh? Science was....wow. Haha! Well, we just took notes all hour but before and after class I had a little conversation with Elizabeth about me and Shane. And some "other things." In the end, at the end of class, she went to her 7th period thinking that I'm pregnant (taking things that I said the COMPLETE wrong way, and getting a tad bit confused) and says she's gonna make me a blanket to give to me at my baby shower. *blank expression* I told Shane after school. He's just a bit confused on how she got the idea that I got the pregs. But, I decided not to explain, because it would just complicate things, and he might get even MORE upset that I told our little secret to Liz and Paige, even though he told Zack. Principals of Business was alright. I finished my Timings Review powerpoint presentation. I worked really hard on it, and I hope I get a good grade. The next assignment is worth 110 points, and Kane is my partner. But he finished his Timings Review in 5 minutes and started without me. I, however, took my time and spent most of the hour, and had to start one by myself. Then he says that I'm "being suborn, and working alone." Whatever, I am not! He's just careless, and doesn't care about his grade. No wonder he has a D in the easiest class ever. After skew I made Shane smile for another picture. This one is ABSOLUTELY adorable, and when I got home, I sent them to my mom, and Michelle. I have nothing else to say, now. I think I've said it all. See you later, kids. xx

#15 Wow today was boring as hell. I only got ONE frickin' question right on my math test. Why do I have to suck so much at math? That ruined my whole day. xx

#14 I was just e-mailin' my mum, and she says that Patrick Stump is gonna be on Law and Order in February! OMG! I went to e-mail her back and say "Now I'm excited!" but I accidently typed "Now I'm sexcited!" Naturally, because he's so amazingly gorgeous. Anyway....that is all... xx

#13 That party was amazing. Now, THAT was the best night of my life, let me tell YOU. It was just so fun. 'Course Shane's friend and brother wouldn't leave us alone, they got less annoying after a while. Shane's brother actually gave me his jacket when I got cold. And when I was falling asleep on him (He thinks that if he rubs the outside of my ear, I'll go to sleep. But I had the hood of his hoodie on my head, and rubbing against that was...quite loud, actually...), and he thought I was asleep he started talking about me to his brother. He said I'm beautiful, I have a great mind, and I'm "goddamn cute." But he didn't know that I heard that. Tee hee! Everyone at that party was freakin' wasted, I'm surprised half of them didn't die of alcohol poisoning. But he has my cell phone right now, an I've about died without it. I didn't notice how much I use it a day until I don't have it. My Jesus, I use it a LOT. Anyway, today has sucked balls. Well MOST of today has sucked balls. I've been sick on the couch most of today. Sick as an effing dog with ebola, one leg missing, a tooth pick stuck in it's right eye, and a small case of HIV. I had the WORST headache, and a cough that just does NOT seem to go away. I took enough asprin to kill a horse, and loads of "mucus medication" or something real gross. Just took one now. Ucky. Then after a few minutes of my daily crying, I felt fabulous, and called Paige. And we went to the mall. The yummy guy was working at Hot Topic today. Hee hee. I got a large Icee, a keychain of a light blue dinosaur (which Paige named Bopert) and then a Coke-Cola from a machine. Because the stupid man who works at Tilt kicked me out when I came in for a Pepsi. Douche bag. THEN on the way home from droppin' Paige off, someone called my grand-muh-ma's cellular telephone, and hung up after one ring! And no one knows who it is! The phone number was 781-3582. If this is your phone number, please let me know. Because it is buggin' the shizzle out of me. Well, now I'm just-a sittin' here listenin' to Incubus. The song "Dig" = delicious. I love that song. Well, I guess I'm gonna go. I gotta showah-showah, so I can be clean for skew tomorrow. G'bye! xx

#12 Last night was the best night of my life so far. It was so fun, and Shane is just so sweet. It was great. Shane invited me to this bonfire with his family later today. It starts in about 3 hours. I'm just trying to find ways to pass the time 'til then. It's not working too well. xx

#11 Shane called me last night. Tiffany completley misunderstood him. He didn't say that at all. So, we're still going to the dance tonight. It's in a couple of hours. I have the worst headache right now. But, I'm gonna wait to take asprin until before I leave to go to the skew, so that I won't have a headache while I'm there. 'Cause that would suck. I don't really have much to say right now. It's 4:56pm...and I'm listening to The Take Over, The Breaks Over. Waiting for it to be 6:30pm. *sigh* It's taking too long. Art Survey was freaking boring, as usual. We just worked on our pot the whole time. Like we have for two effing weeks. Journalism was ok. We got our tests back (I got a C), and graded the quiz that we took yesterday. Gym was awesome! All we did was play dodgeball! I love Fridays! Algebra was ok, I guess. Boring, but ok. Comm Arts was alright. We finished our worksheets, and kept reading The Pigman until chapter 7. I really like that book, so far. Science was amazing! We colored a picture of the solar system! It was great! But stupid Kane made fun of my Jupiter, because I colored it purple. Our teacher said it could be ANY COLOR that we wanted it to be, so I colored it PURPLE. But, I GUESS he had a problem with that. Dummy. Principals of Business was boring. SO boring. We've been working on the same powerpoint presentation ALL WEEK! I'm finally finished, but SHEESH! Did it HAVE to be so boring? It was about the history of Halloween. How could any teacher (my FAVORITE ONE, even) make anything about Halloween boring? BAH! And I went home, ate some spiderman mac & cheese, took a shower, and watched some Reba. Now I'm on here. Listenin' to Dead on Arival, now. I think I'm going to go. It's 5:02pm, now. Just a little more to go. *sigh* I think I'll make it. xx

#10 Well....I didn't go to homecoming. I went to the football game, though. We won. 48 to 0. It was really fun. I wish I could have gone to homecoming, but my parents wouldn't let me. Only because I didn't have a dress. Pffft! Well, things WERE fine until today. Today was a HORRIBLE day. My grandpa is the one who wakes me up every morning. Alarms don't wake me. But today he got up an HOUR late, and I only had 5 minutes to get ready, leave, and be AT skew. I made it, though. When I did get to skew, I hung out with Shane for the FEW minutes before class. In those few minutes, I noticed how freaking gorgeous his eyes are. The most beautiful, perfect shade of green I've ever seen. Except for that one white, fluffy kitty on the Fancy Feast cat food commercials. Have you seen that cat's eyes? I mean HOLY SNICKERDOODLES, right? But those breif minutes before Art Survey were the last thing good about today. Me and Shane aren't talking. He keeps making promises that he can't keep, and I'm really getting sick of it. And today he told one of my best friends that he doesn't care if my feelings get hurt, or if he's the one that causes it. He promised me that he'd do something (for two days, by the way) in his ROTC class today, and he completley avoided doing it, told my friend he didn't care if it hurt my feelings, and then beat her with a freaking COAT HANGER! And people are telling me to dump him. All I even thought of even threatening to do was tell Shane I don't want to go to the dance with him (that's tomorrow, fyi), which Tiffany told me not to do, because it would hurt his feelings so bad, I will regret it. But Paige is practially BEGGING me to dump him. She hates him, of course. And my parents asked me what was wrong about 8 times after skew today, and eventually, I told them, and they also think I should break up with him. but I REALLY don't want to. I do love him, but he pisses me off sometimes to the point I want to let Paige scrape his eyes with a potato peeler. Which she wants to do oh-so-very badly. He doesn't want to say he's sorry. I don't even think he realizes that I'm upset, that bastard. And I think.....it's all because I didn't wear my Clandestine necklace. I accidently left it on my table! I only took it off 'cause it gets caught in my hair, and now it caused this. Well, I HAVE to wear it now! There's a dance tomorrow night. The ROTC Halloween dance. Me and Shane are suppose to be going together, but I don't know if we are anymore. I still really want to go, but I don't know if he even wants to take me after all of this. And when it all goes to hell, will you be able to tell me you're sorry with a straight face? xx

#9 Wow. Today has been pretty weird. Or weird to me, anyway. This morning I made up my mind that I was NOT going to homecomnig. Then Shane asked me to go with him. And how could I say no? Now, I'm going, and I don't have a dress. Even if I did have a dress, I wouldn't wear it. So, I'm wearing jeans, converse, and a black band shirt like I usually do. *sigh* Tonight is like...the biggest football game of the year. And Shane is ALSO taking me to that. Which I'm excited about. Me. With the least school spirit of anyone I know, is excited about a football game. I'm so effing...I don't even know. There's a pep rally in 25 minutes. And I'm also kind of excited about that. I'm still in 7th period. We are watching a movie. But I have not payed any attention to it, and I don't know what it is about. I'm going to go. Gonna play the game on Microtype until I throw up. xx

#8 And again....I am in 7th period. We have a sub, and no work to do. I finished my quarter final, which my teacher calls the quarter "celebration," so I have no work to do. 41 minutes left until study hall, and I'm so bored, I think I might cry. Yesterday I was so mad at Shane...damn, all I could think about all day was stabing him in the tit. He kept promising to come help me with my homework in the library before school, but he didn't come to school for two days. But he said he was sorry and realized what a dick he was being, so I forgave him. This week has gone by so fast! I've had 2 math tests (and I'm sure I've failed both), and I'm having a science test on Tuesday. The quarter ends tomorrow, and grades have to be in. I know I haven't done enough to raise my pethetic math grade, and no where CLOSE to having a science grade worth showing my parents. I'm scared of what's gonna happen when they see. Well, I am going to go. Nothing else to say, and no use staying on here for the remaining 38 minutes of business class. xx