i sleep it clears my mind stops the think i dont want to think of you but its all my mind wants to do every hour you cross my mind i want you so bad it hurts inside when i turned 16 i wished for you on my birthday wish a pink candle graced my cake i wished to be with you i care for you so much why cant you see and ask me out im too scared to make a sound so i go day after day without your love

i see you and i freak my heart skips a beat i lay on my bed and dream of you your all i think about everyday i wonder if you feel the same way it must be clear how i feel but you spin me around day after day its been a year i finally feel im over you as im going to class i see you walking down the hall oh whos that your with your holding hands i feel sick i go home and drink and drink think about what this means i come to the conclusion i dont care it just hurts to see whats real

im not certain how you feel the two of you are so in love but you still look at me when you think i cant tell your eyes are like magnets to my face you've been caught by my friends a number of times you touched my legs under the table what do you want me to think i wonder what she'd do if she knew your with her and thats for sure but i want to know how you feel just so we're clear im never been in love with you just the attention you disperse to me so oftenly i never led you on you just never did enough for me to tell you off

we sit in the dark bodies pulled apart i stare at the skin on your arm and watch as your blue earing sparkles in the dim light the movie plays and i cant focus the freckles on you arm capture my attention and im not even attracted to you i have no one i never do

you think your so cool walking all around school hoddie up ipod blasting indie kid shit im so sick of this but im just bitter cause i tried to be nice and all you did was kung fu kick me in the face you look so stupid trying so hard

i felt so good today it was quite a stretch i quit looking at the negative and went along with it i talked to the people that i used to hate held their hand and gave them a kiss we're friends again and it feels so good i dont want to hate nonononon i dont want to hate i know what i did i can say sorry i dont care if you say it back today was a new day i started fresh this week was a new week im not looking to rest

" do u ever just see you're face and want to rip it off?" not quite but i get where youre coming from and i feel a similar discomfort.

no more seduction no more eruption its just clear i cant settle on any one i see no ones what im looking for everyones just another person and nothing stands out drift apart from me and i dont think i would care as much as i should im not suprised the connection died when summer started and we lost touch we sit in the car and i never know what to say nothings the same ive lost so many ive quit caring

your marriage is dead your marriage has gotten bloody wait for the divorce wait wait wait for for the divorce it should be soon sorry it didnt turn out better but there were some nice times, right? alcahol tastes so sweet when the bottles empty broken in the sink god, i just love weddings all for you i did it all for you and i hate my life now,

i want to see you on one of these nights i want to give it to you under the sky and we've never really talked only a couple times but we know enough lets not wreck it it could turn into pretend love and i want to see you one one of these nights and give it to you under the sky we know enough i like you alot it could turn into pretend love- just for the sake of it. lets see each other in the night i wish i could stop dreaming of things that wont happen and relationships that wont play out or even start