well,here we go,boxing day is pretty much over, which i guess also means the end of christmas for another year!And i have to admit,while it for some reason induced sad feelings in me,i will miss the happier aspects of the christmas spirit-The champagne and *Ahem* other alcohol ive been permitted for once to drink,the opportunity for the family to relax together...the time off school which will run out in a week or so...alas! But the thought that continues to spin round my mind is how im spending that time-AT HOME sitting in,doing nothing.life is so boring!None of my friends can be bothered to talk to me!Im so...boring?angry?emotional?what is it thats changed? God only knows.all I know myself,is that the company of my songmeanings journal,as well as the attention of whichever lyrical maniac(like myself) seem to be the only friend and comfort I have right now!

Well,it's christmas,and the very first time ive posted a journal...I've enjoyed,occasionally,readin other peoples',but to be honest, im the most lazy,and indeed slightly boring,person ever,and so never bothered myself. Chrismas day.sitting in my parents bedroom,doing...nothing!When did life get so..errrm...crap?!IM ONLY 16! Christmas is no longer about the joy and hyperactivity of getting new toys,and im not old enough to hit the bars.So i trawl into the living room,look at the clichéd teen girl gifts-make up,jewellery,hair products and money-have a few cans with my family..what now? and this is where i found myself-behind a computer screen,even though none of my msn buddies are online-theyre undoubtedly enjoying an more exciting christmas!!! Heres the dealio-life for me is pretty dull,and lets face it,as a teenage girl i got no power-but even ill admit,ive a powerful mind.The thoughts never stop coming.hopefully, ill be able to continue this journal,and right all those thoughts and questions down.That way.when im you know...OLD ill look back and go HUH thats what life was about back then!HA!imin NO doubt that the things that make me cry,or laugh,or worry now,will be nothing to what will achieve the same emotions when Im 30,40,whatever!So..this journal?my diary.because lets face it,its just not cool to keep an actual diary this day in age!!!:P