I've decided to forget about Andrew for a while. We never see each other anyway. Caleb was being really sweet today. :) I made cheerleading. :) We started our recital routines in dance. :) I lost 4 pounds in two days. :) Life is good. I'm going to treat myself with an ice cream cone.

and everything was going so well.... I am bipolar about so many things and it sucks. Sometimes I'm totally in love with Andrew.. and other times it's Caleb. :/ I can't help it. I like them both so much and for different reasons.. Recently I've been liking Andrew more. And also.. My "best friend" has been totally ditching me lately. And she's literally my only friend. I haven't hung out with her in almost two months. Which basically means I haven't hung out with anyone. I'll be there if you need anything at all you want to be. Run around the world with me. State your distance but it's not a million miles away. If this is what will really make you happy.. then I say we'll be old enough to know better, young enough to pretend. This is the last of my letters until I see you again.

life. is. amazing. i love my life. its the best. i am so thankful. i love you Andrew. you make me so happy.