. i miss you so much i cant breathe when you hang up the phone, all this time and i would've imagined my heart would've got used to your absence but STILL. That fucking word (STILL), yo i swear it almost sums everything up. I feel this way STILL????? i love you STILL?????? I MISSSS YOUUUU STILLL????????? i dont know, as always i feel like ive been dealt a bad hand even though shit looks perfect. You know there will never be nothing like what we had, ever. And its so fucked up that now that i AM the man you wanted me to be i can't have you. Its funny like dat, Life sometimes you know. Im so confused, i mean sometimes i just want to be able to talk to you, you know thinking OK maybe i can atleast have that and i will be satisfied. But it dont work like dat, everytime i talk to you i want more, and think about how much more this faggot has. You dont know how much i hate him for having you.AAAAHHHHHHHhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! fuck Its not fair. you wasnt made for him, and even if we ever do find our way back home it will never change the fact that he had you, that i knew it, and that you was happy, and that will fuck with me forever. I dont know what to do, and i dont know what to feel, but i do know you need to hear this. Im miserable, really i am. And its crazy, imagine how that shit feels..lmao its kinda funny too. I went from a kid not even having one peice of the puzzle, just a fucking huge & big mess, to now having all of them except the one to complete the picture. Picture dat shit , its like being at the finish line and dropping dead under the ribbon. ITS JUST A FUCkING SHAAAAME. I LUV YOU PRINCESS I ALWAYS HAVE ALWAYS WILL ALWAYS ...............yours,(TRULY!!!!!!!!) LAW . .