INSECURITY is a mutherfuckin bitch Contact with the outside world...FORBIDDEN No life No friends 25 hour lockdown, thrown in the Box And they ask "why you always look so deppressed?" Ha! Haro will be the death of me... FuckLife.. . http://www.myspace.com/lviaaharoo .

. i miss you so much i cant breathe when you hang up the phone, all this time and i would've imagined my heart would've got used to your absence but STILL. That fucking word (STILL), yo i swear it almost sums everything up. I feel this way STILL????? i love you STILL?????? I MISSSS YOUUUU STILLL????????? i dont know, as always i feel like ive been dealt a bad hand even though shit looks perfect. You know there will never be nothing like what we had, ever. And its so fucked up that now that i AM the man you wanted me to be i can't have you. Its funny like dat, Life sometimes you know. Im so confused, i mean sometimes i just want to be able to talk to you, you know thinking OK maybe i can atleast have that and i will be satisfied. But it dont work like dat, everytime i talk to you i want more, and think about how much more this faggot has. You dont know how much i hate him for having you.AAAAHHHHHHHhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! fuck Its not fair. you wasnt made for him, and even if we ever do find our way back home it will never change the fact that he had you, that i knew it, and that you was happy, and that will fuck with me forever. I dont know what to do, and i dont know what to feel, but i do know you need to hear this. Im miserable, really i am. And its crazy, imagine how that shit feels..lmao its kinda funny too. I went from a kid not even having one peice of the puzzle, just a fucking huge & big mess, to now having all of them except the one to complete the picture. Picture dat shit , its like being at the finish line and dropping dead under the ribbon. ITS JUST A FUCkING SHAAAAME. I LUV YOU PRINCESS I ALWAYS HAVE ALWAYS WILL ALWAYS ...............yours,(TRULY!!!!!!!!) LAW . .

. Curiousity killed the cat. Why did you have to ask me if I were happy? Why? Were you half expecting me to say that I wasn't? You're fucking consuming my thoughts now Felix. Sound dramatic? Well it is. Caught me off my gaurd and knocked me the fuck over. I knew I could never stop feeling for you how I always have, but I did finally bury it. Somewhere far and deep inside. So deep that I could almost believe myself if I said I didn't Miss you. And here you come diggin up whats dead...or what I thought was dead. This is what you need to know... I have been with him for a year and 1/2 now. Almost EVERY DAY spent together. That is a long time Felix. I have something now that I have never had in my life and its called STABILITY. I know it sounds like a cop out, but Felix, Im comfortable with where Im at and Im comfortable with him. I dont want to tell you this, mostly to spare you, but He takes very good care of me and he has been there right next to me through everything. I can never deny this. I owe him more than I would like to think. And yes, I do love him. Atleast I was sure that I did...untill now. I just typed it on the screen and it looks not right. Thanks for doin this again. Will I ever ever feel for him what I still feel for you? Never. That hurts. Its not fair for you, me or him. You can never understand how much I care for you kid. Cared. I would've done it all, and I think I tried to. But Im human and I get tired, and I did. And once I stopped trying & caring thats when you started to really change... I got no sleep last night. I wanna see you. Kiss you. Gaze into you. Lay. Talk with few words (we never had to say much to "get" each other, did we) Make love. Laugh. You know what Felix. I try hard to be loyal and honest. You really fuckin me up. I wear my emotions and soon he'll know somethings up.Not that you should care.It's all so sad.I love you like no one else will, I can promise you that.I hope you'll remember this.Remember this. Yours, Lvia V. .

. I ditched my classes today...only cuz I had shit to wear....My man keeps calling my phone but Im not pickin up only cuz I AM THEE WORST LIAR....so Id rather not even try ya kno. This week we're studying instruments. Dental Instruments.Oh yea...Im going to dental school. Anyway,there are like 700 instruments in total..and they all look exactly alike!! Im supposed to know them all?!? anyway,we had a pop quiz yesterday...50 instruments. I got 110%!!! so Haro needs to give me a fuckin break. Anyway,Im home watchin American Beauty...Oh and Porn..lol Listenin to At The Drive-In... check them out...seriously..

. WHYYYYYYYY da fuck doesn't SongMeanings.com have ANY Red Hot Chille Peppers songs?????? What the fuck?!?!?!? fuckin abomination .

Thee greatest At The Drive-In song everrrr Listen To It Now . . In other news..... That new Britney Spears song Gimme More is gooood Makes me feel sexual and shit .

Just heard them like right now on some kids myspace page.... Like heavy modern metal.... Sounds good...Go check 'em out or not....you know.... Whatever .

Omygodddd If Jim Morrison were alive now or If I were alive back then I wouldve soooooooooo took some acid with him and then we'd make sloppy love . Okay first time I heard of The Doors was in Harolds (my man) car. He said im about to blow your mind im like whatever. Honestly I though he was about to play some new Wisin y Yandel or Zion shit.. I mean i like reaggeton but it aint gon blow my mind! Anyway he presses play.... "you kno that it would be untrue/You know that i would be a liar/if i were to say to you/that girl we couldnt get much higher/Come on baby Light My Fire" My heart dropped at the lil interlude in the middle He was right he blew my mind for sure. Now he only came by to say goodnight and give me the c.d. he had just made but I dunno what got into me.. maybe it was Jims voice that turned me on,but I told him to drive down to the lake at Flushing Meadows....He did and we had wonderful car sex while listening to "love me Two Times". It was great. Fave song right now is "The Soft Parade" .

Whats good? Im Lisa from NYC...aka Lvia (of song by The Mars Volta). Im 19, dominican,aries...blah blah blah who the fuck cares.... MARS VOLTA RULES!!!!!!..... I first heard Ceds voice in the car on a very long drive to Florida. My cousin Sabrina and I hadnt hung out in years and the last time I saw her she was this super cute J.Lo look alike,all hip hop and now..now she had full sleeved tatoos and this really short black haircut and she said "dope" alot. WTF..anyway in the hood we dont see alternative shit like dat everyday...and for a awhile I swore she was posing...cuz like "is this the same chick i used to listen to Nas with for hours and make up dances to the latest rap songs with?" i mean what the fuck... Okay anyway...long story shorter, I was runnin away from my problems in New York so I hitched a ride to florida with Sabrina.She drove so of course she djayed and she played like madd Thursday and Thrice and Every time I die and like just a bunch of headbanger music that fuckin gave me a slight headache but you kno..like im OPen minded and shit so i listened untill i got used to it.... Then she puts on a lil something I call heaven..Frances The Mute by The Mars Volta................... Duuuuude.....Fuckin incredible and mind blowing and orgasmic and....dam like amazing. I was blown away...Like i grew up on like hip hop and all that you kno...no one ever put me on to anything else and it surprised me that I actually really enjoy listening to rock,prog,alter,real punk,screamo (not fall out boy or good charlotte or shit like them, super flippen gay) I love it more than rap and regeton and pop and anything else! favorite-- bands with good drummers anyhow Im like the only person I know that Loves TMV,At-The_Drive-In ect..... and Im just tryna reach out and find more like me