Yeah I have my first major exam for geology tomorrow. it's worth like 200 points i think. And i've been meaning to get to that for like the past 3 hours, but instead i've taken a shower, been on the computer, eaten, and watched tv. I'm not being very productive, but i think i'm seriously gonna get off of here so i can just study, get it over with, and not have to think/worry about it anymore! !!!! AHH i hate school. It really blows.

So it's been almost 2 years since I met him. For 2 years, I have gone back and forth on whether he was worth all the trouble. Over the 2 years I've learned that if you're wondering whether he's worth the trouble then there is obviously something wrong with him and it should NOT be pursued. There were many times when I thought I was over him, but most of the time i think i was just in denial. Their was no one else out there and he made me feel special. Honey, don't let that fool you. I am finally content with the fact that he won't be in my life anymore. I used to sign on AIM and stare at his screen name waiting for him to sign on. I used to drive around right after he got out of school *in hopes* that i would pass him. I used to dress up for him. I used to give into his every whim. I used to prank phone call him just to hear his voice. I used to want to seek revenge. And I used to feel guilty over something that was ALWAYS his fault. I'm not being bitter, I'm just being truthful. I don't do any of those things anymore. I think that is a sign that i'm truly over his sorry ass. Whenever I run into him or see him, I don't hold a grudge. I try to be as nice as possible but somehow he *ALWAYS* seems to put words in my mouth and blames me for everything. I try to make peace and just be friends. Doesn't work with that horny bastard. He just can't be friends with a girl. So with him, it's either one or the other. "Date" him, or lose a "friend" i've had since my senior year of high school. I put those in quotations for reasons only i know. I think i know what it has to be, and I think I'm ready for that change. There are so many things I want to say about what he's done, and how he's lied, and cheated, and just been a genuine jerk, but then this entry would start to turn into a novel. All i have to say is i don't know how he could treat anybody the way he's treated ALL HIS GIRLFRIENDS. He treats them all the same way. For some reason, i thought i would be different. I guess i was love struck by his cheap but charming words. Anyways, I'll end this with a sense of motivation and inspiration. This is a quote I found on wittyprofiles.com. iVe BeEn HuRt A 1 0 0 0 tImEs IvE bEeN tOlD a [m.i.l.l.i.o.n] LieS but i still believe in LOVE.... Laura Louise

I'm not really new to songmeanings i just forgot my old username. i guess i could've just looked it up in my e-mail, but i figured to just make a new user name. I really do love this place because usually when i have no idea what a song is about i come here and it puts new ideas into my head, and i see how different people interpret different songs. Although i have noticed that a lot of country music isn't commented on, but more of everything else. It doesn't bother me i just thought that was weird. No country fans out there??! haha. i used to hate country but i think that's just because i never gave it a chance. Sure there are some songs that are sort of "countrified" which i think is why people get irritated with it. always talking about their chevy trucks and junk but there really are some good songs out there. I know this is kind of a lame entry, but that's ok, haha. that's all for tonight! i gotta get to doin' some trig..haha or maybe not..we'll see. bye all! much love, laura louise