so you know how i said one more year, well scratch that i'm going back a year just to catch up on all that crap that i missed when i got mono from my ex-boyfriend. so yeah, screw you. i blame you for it, i have to leave my class and go to the one below me, i don't mind them, i just have my best friends in my class now.

so yeah i'm pretty pissed off about that. anyways, i don't have time to write, i have to go and figure out what to do until x-mas.

i haven't written anything in here for so long, i don't even know where to start.

i have started listening to a lot of rnb lately, even though i still like rock and alternative and that stuff, i'm a lot more open to different kind of music now. well everything except for coutry, death metal and that stuff.

so we went on classtrip for a week two weeks ago, and the last week we've had holidays. it's been pretty relaxing i guess, i just don't feel like going back to school at all. well one more year and then i'm finally fucking done.

a lot happened in summer, i got back with the guy i was with for 2 years. it made me realize what a big part of my life he was and how i really missed him. i told him we shouldn't continue the long distance thing, just because of the way it ended up last time. we understood and said he'd wait for me. it's been pretty rough since then but we talked for so long last night, i just can't wait to get back and be with him. i really miss him. i know i shouldn't since he's hurt me so much and all, but there's just something about him and i've tried to replace him but it's never worked. i guess it's true what they say, you shouldn't try to replace him, because you'll only end up getting more hurt. so now i'm just not going to do anything and see how things turn out. if we end up being together, great, if we don't, then i guess we're not meant to be. and plus we're still so young, we're not in a rush.

it's been pretty weird with my guy best friend lately. my friends have been telling me he likes me and i kinda saw how he gets at times, but then again i see him in situations where i'm just thinking that there's no way in hell that they are right. but all that aside, i don't really care. even if he liked me, it's a phase and it'll pass by, but i'm pretty sure they just think that because we are uber close. he literally knows everything about me and vice versa. well nearly, i kinda stopped telling him things about 'him'. just because he doen't get where i'm coming from and he acts all weird when i talk about him so yeah.

anyways, i should get ready, watching a movie with a few friends later and i don't know what to wear haha.

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