to do list: -dye hair -figure him out -figure myself out -make this year -tell him the truth about what really happened at the party im moving on the first of april. my ex lives one min away. its going to be hell. but im glad we are over, i wasnt over the guy i was with before him. and to add to all that he lives in germany. and i live in fucking china. i mean i should be glad, my dad has a great job and all and we dont have to worry about money or anything. i have great friends, i know i can count on them. just that the guy i love lives in germany. and i only met him because my grandpa lives in the same village. you call me a bitch? well a bitch is a dog, dogs bark, bark grows on trees, trees are nature, nature is beautiful. so thank you :D but the good news is, im seeing him in 28 days

it's all blowing up. it's over, but i don't know if i should be sad or happy. i know im still in love with the guy i was with before him, but just as i was starting to fall for him he broke things off. fuck you. but then again, maybe you saved me.