so me, bri, lauren, and harold went to the hospital to see nick tonite. it was the first time that id seen him since he started his chemo on monday. i was all good up until when we were about to leave and he started talking about the treatments and i actually got to thinking "wow, my best friend has cancer." and i just had to leave. damn, i dont know what to think about all this except not to think about it. whenever i do i get all depressed and shit, but idk why i feel bad, i cant imagine how he must feel. yesterday one of our friends from work was talkin to me about it and he was like "so is this somthing he could die from?" and i said "man, i havnt even asked that question to anybody. im too scared to ask it and i try not to think of that possibility." anyway, itll all work out in the end...i hope