I'm so tired of everything; the only problem is, I'm not really doing anythhing. I'm so tired of hearing the cliche shit that no one actually means. i don't need anything, and I'm not asking for anything too big. So how is it that everytime I invest myself into someone else they end up throwing it all in my face and making me feel so stupid and ordinary. And I won't stop it. I can't stop having faith in people, even when I know they don't want me. I'm so tired of being by myself. I just want to see a better day.

So, I hate Myspace. I hate Facebook. I basically hate any means of self advertisement. It's not so much the concept I don't like, it's more along the lines of the fact that people swarm to create a perfect cyber being that completes them and makes them feel more content with themselves. As far as I'm concerned that's yet another way to erase who you really are, while subscribing to what everyone tells you you ought to be. Why should anyone have to change themselves in order to be socially acceptable? But, more importantly, I think the question comes down to, Why would anyone want to betlittle who they trully are to make a stranger more at ease and comfortable with false advertisement? So, this is me. I never know how to start a 'normal' conversation, or where to stop an awkward one. And oh yeah, i never know when to shut up, because even though nothing that I say is important, I seem to always want to say it outloud, just so that I may know exactly what the hell I'm thinking. You'll never understand me, but that's fine. I don't pretend that anyone's going to read this, which makes it feel kind of like some sort of safe haven, and I definetely don't pretend that anyone would be interested in understanding me, but that's fine because I'll never understand me either. And i also, basically just don't give a shit..that too I guess.