So much for crying, theres too much fighting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My dads going to prison and I feell like I'm in a randsome! My mother is staying with my step father, while he just got through beating me. My brother really needs my mother! But shes making all these mistakes its really hard for my sister and I to take. My grandpa gets sick everyday! How could I just sit there and lay?????? Soon school we be starting back and I'm not even packed!!!!!!! Theres no way of turning back when you know your screwing up this very second. My God help me be better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My boyfriend and I have to start all over, it really sucks to have really bad luck. well it's so hard to become a somebody that your not. well may one day I'll become a someone???

As days get colder I'm getting so much older! My mom is lost in this cold blooded world, it's a terrible war!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My dad makes me so sad that he is doing so bad! Not long from now my older sister will be in the aldult world now!!! My brother is going through this crazy stage it's wripping a big page, out of my screwed up life. My boyfriend and I just broke up, it's just like theres something missing in me! Is there really a God? I pray but it doesn't allways work. Why me? I need some help! I'm waiting here while my life is falling apart!!!!!!!!!! God please help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!