'Bury me, bury me I am finished with you Look in my eyes You're killing me, killing me All I wanted was you' So I Deleted Everything Of Adams Today, Got Rid Of everything. Made Sure I didnt Have Anything To Remind Me Of Him, Pictures, Music Of His, Convostaions everything. I Realised Last Night How Unfair I Was being To Him & Robyn. Knowone Can Hep Who They Like.. Robyn & I Decided We Needed To Have A Big Talk On It all. I Still Want TO Hurt Them & Make Them Cry But Yeah. Its Not Going To Happen.. I Should Give Up. Jacob Is Coming With Me On friday.. Soo Excited.. But Very Scaredd I Think My Msn fukked cOs I Had Loads Of Messages From Him When I Came Back On Line Saying Stuff Like Okay Fine Bye x I Wa Like :S Ohh dear! Butt People dont Read Into Things Like I Do So Hopefully It Will Be fine :] I Dont Know What To Write. :( Very Lost atm Byee x

It Was A Good Day today :] Wen tOut to Town With the Girlys.. Robyn Leigh Sharne & Ashlea. As Sharnes Birthday Was Saturday We Had a Little Get Together. but Yeah. Robyn Haddd To Ruin By Making It Out To Be Her Who Sheould Get All the Attentnion & be Sad & crap Noooo! I Just Want To Hurt them. I Want To Shout At Her And Adam. ALOT. They Hurt Me.. I Hurt Them Yeah? But No. she Cant See Whats Shes Done Wrong. aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I'm sooo angry. Everythings about her. :'( & Then Jacob Said His Dad Got The Day Mixed Up.. & Now He Cant come On Wednesday.. So He Said Friday. :] Which soundss great! & Me & Lawand Are GOnuh Get everyone together foor A Party In the Park cos We Have nothing better to do! It Doesnt Feel Like summer :( I Want SUN! Please. :( Make My Yearn Gimmie some sun! I WANT a Tan I NEED a Tan I'm Going to Get one. Harryyy potter :] Yeahh got th e book the day it came out. cos we ordered it.. Acctully i have 2 copys bu both my mum & sister Have Stolen them soo i canout read it :( Soo I'll Read tHe Sixth one To Refresh My Memory.. =] Hope your all having a good hoilday c:

Alot Of Drama. Robyns Not Talking To Me Or Adam.. Tbh I dont Care About HIm. But I Care About Her. Ha! Shes Just Come Online. She Probably Wont Talk. Okay. She Is. & Seems Cheersful. :] Things could be okay. But Yeahh One Of my Best Mates Matt Is Really Upset.. His Girlfriend.. Sharnna.. A Close Friend Of Mine.. Got Off With Scott THis Guy At Rollerowrld Last Night, twice.. soo Yeah Holly Told Him & Hes Upset Sat On The Phone to Him For Hours.. I Cried With Him xD Yeah Shes Pretty Retard.. thinking shes all that? Hmm. Pisses Me Off.. But I Still Love Her? Missing Sophie & Burtii.. They On Hoilday Together In Flordia. I'm Soooo Jelous. Jacobs Good.. =] Hes Not Online Till Tuesday Night.. Then I'm Meeting Up With Him On Wednesday.. But Its not for deffinet Yet :( Talk Soon :] xxx

So Yeahhh :] Thinks Are Going Okay? Got Another Email From Adam TOday, Which i did not want.. I Said Today He Had No Balls.. Which He Doesnt Then Robyn (Best Friend) Tells Him Everything.. When I didnt Say Much? Soo Yeah We Had An Argument.. It Was Pretty Bad.. She Decide To Say I Was A Hypocrite. Shes Having A bubble. She Was The One Telling Me That I Shouldnt Like Adam Becuase He Lives In Scotland.. I Shouldnt Rule Other (Closer) Guys Out Becuase They Are Better.. Then She Says She Wont Even Look At Another Guy & Likes him. But Yeah =[ She Said She'd Never Choose Between Us... Choose between us? Is she have a Giggle? Seriously.. Some Guy Shes Never Meet,, Met Through Me & everything & Only known what.. 7 months? Hmm.. Shes Know Me For Ages.. We Have Been Best Mates For Over a Year & a Half & Now She Tells Me this. Fair I Think Not. =[ Makes Me Angry... But I Always Have Jack? My Best Friend :] I wouldnt call Him My Best Friend If someone Asked.. I say rObyn.. But Thinking About it.. Jack Would Be My Bestie? Known Him Since I Was 4-5? Yeah Been Gay All His Life.. Just Isnt Choosing To Tell Anyone.. Although I Cant Belive It That some People Think Hes Straight? I've Made Bets On Him :D I'm Gonnuh Get Moneyyy.. But I'll Share It With Him Ferr Sure. Hes There For Me On ABSOUTLY Everything. Yeah He Smokes, Drinks, Bunks but Now Hes Started Stealing? I HAVE shouted at him for it.. & Told Him I think Its Wrong And He Has stopped But He did It Yesterday. O Dearrrr! But I Do THink He wIll As I Made Him Feel TERRIBLY Guilty Soo Yeah.. :L ESSAY again. But Yeah Jacobs okay? didnt See him Today.. & It was a last day before summer? Hopefully We Will Met Up.. :] I Really Like Him.. But Theres Alot Of Rumors About him? Seem To Of Come From Nowehre? :O:O :L I Cant Say But Yeah Kinda Scared Me a Bit.. Like.. Hes Not What He Seems? Yeah I'll Be Careful :] Cheers For Readinggg :P xxx

Heeey Dont Really Know If Anyone Will Read This... But Its Somewhere for people to listen with out jugding right? Although i really do need someone to talk to.. If your Nice & well Friendly Add My Msn Or Email Me or something.. :D Super-sxc-fairy@hotmail.com You Can Probly See that On My Profile Though Maybee? Anywayyy so Yeah.. Everything Was Going Amaingg This Morning Well Happy Untill My Best Friend told me that she & My This Guy both liked each toher. Me & this guy were in love. Only a few Weeks Ago.. & I know i'm naive but tbh we were. & this is the silly part. He Lives In Scotland! Never Meet him.. but we were talking for like 7 months. Okay That sounds even worst.. But It was weird.. & well anyway We Fell Out a Couple Of Times Were okayy then i get this email Saying he had deleted me! He Was One Of My Best Friends.. So Yeah My Best Friend.. & My other Best Friend now like eacher... Am i supposed to pretend i dont care? Cos Its Hard.. & Yeah Cried a Few Times.. But I See how silly i was when we were togther.. & Everything she used to tell me like.. you shouldnt like him he lives in scotland.. surely shes being really hypocritcal? :( So Yeah Ruined My Day. But Summers Coming Getting Really in to this guy at my school.. Doesnt live in scotland this time.. & I Think He At Least Likes Me As a Mate.. So Its Good News. His Nameee Is Jacob. :L Luvvv him & Yeah Dyeing My Hair. This is Essayy Length. Well Sorry XD Thanks For Reading =] x