I'm tired of a lot of things. I find myself not wanting to ever, ever step out into the real world. the most current stream of people doing the most current things makes me pretty sick. And I'm really so fucking tired of everyone in the whole entire stupid world getting high and thinking they're so cool. I'm tired of feeling so left out out of every little thing. I'm tired of stupid girls ages 7-20 whatever. I'm tired of men wanting to control everything. I'm tired of not knowing if someone is lying or not. I'm tired of how unconnected sex can be and never really knowing it. I'm tired of thinking too much. I'm tired of being controlled by time, other people. I'm tired of the way everyone has to look you up and down just because you're walking by them or sitting near them. I'm tired of girls with no self esteem and not being able to give it to all of them. I'm tired of girls being taken advantage of and guys getting away with it every minute of the day. I'm tired of trying so hard for things no one else gives a fuck about. I'm tired of being so lost, so mute to the rest of the world. I'm tired of you, you, youuuuuu. And i don't even know who you is. I'm tired of living here and not being able to leave. I'm tired of trying so hard to make other people happy 'when I'd much rather kick them in the eye'. And how they don't give two shits about me. How people are so cold. I'm tired of adults thinking they know fucking everything about their kids by comparing them to what they hear in hysteria from the news. I'm tired of clone girls in their ugg boots, that's so not even everrr important! I'm so tired of the shallow people. I'm so sick of how hard it is to get away from them, to find other kinds of people. I'm tired of who really rules this world.

its 1 minute til midnight im very tired i wanted to say so much but i dont even feel like it anymore

vic from pierce the veil and jonny from dance gavin dance did a song called "she makes dirty words sound pretty". i love it so very much. listen to it. its real nice so listen to it. today was fun. my boyfriends friends are cooler than mine and yeah. i was going to see sherwood, the rocket summer, armor for sleep, and TAI in late october but i dont really want to go cause its 20 dollars because of TAI. i just wish they werent coming cause it would be cheaper....ok thats mean, TAI is cool...theyre first CD is. id pay 20 dollars if they hadnt made that new album. any suggestion???? i_love_frank

For a second right now, just this one second, think about all the energy and thinking you have wasted today on trying not to make someone feel bad and how much energy you used trying not to look stupid to others. or how much energy you used holding yourself back. it's a pretty fucking lot, right? if i would put mine into a percentage it would be 90-92 percent. im pretty damn sick of it.

i love this its like an online diary..well not really cause it's like open to people to view but no one really would so yeah WHATEVER i read some famous band people's journals on the internet and theyre all pretty amazing and its like you can just tell that theyre song writers and musicians they have the talent in every little thing they say. i want to be like that. i think its like something your born with though. or maybe the way youre brought up. oh well :( i hate rainstorms that dont have any excitement. no lightning no thunder no wind. just water dripping down onto the dirt and my pool. its not even dark its like light gray I HATE IT. it makes my stomach turn to look out the window. my friends all suck. summer sucks and im bored. its it weird that school supplies is exciting to me??? i dont like using them i just like walking down the aisles and buying them. across your acroos your white lines across our map across your across your i...will bear the chains once more to be underground with your mercy i wish good bands never released songs. they say they do it all for the fans and they all play for the fans but its such a big huge gigantic fucking lie. i just want a genunine band with beautiful lyrics, music that really speaks, and band members that dont care about getting huge and getting rich. whatever i_love_frank

umm going to see lola ray tomorrow evening and i am super psyched... i dont know what to say i_love_frank