stupid check was only 150...got tomorrow off then work for 5 days strait :( did nothing tonight after work..everyone busy..golfin tomorrow at 930 with josh and my dad and my bro.. should be a grand ol time..cant get past 79 on impossible quiz but oh well..not much news.. hangin with anna and peeps tomorrow..should be fun.. tryin to find someone to go to damien rice with me! harder than it should be

so we reach the middle of summer with none of the goals reached..no girlfriend..no roadtrip.. only work and hang with friends day in and day out...music keeps me going..writing keeps me going..had a great conversation with a friend today..she was holding back all feelings because of a past relationship gone wrong..thinking that moving away is her only option for finding someone to be with..i encouraged her to look beneath the surface to find peoples true selves..when truely i need to do the same..but first i need to find what i truely want..and how i will set out for it..i need something new but dont want to leave the old..cant sleep at night..same old same old..need something to shake me from gravitys pull if you will..oh how i love the decemberist allusions..but maybe someone will be more capable to shake me..i need someone in my life..and sooner is better than later..im sick of being alone..friends are there of course but it isnt the same without someone to call yours. girls posess me but they are never mine..(blink) . thats it for today..hopefully in the next thirty i will have something or someone new to write about..