seems i remembered my pass it's interesting to look back over the turmoil and thoughts i was thinking a year or so ago. they seem so small now perhaps that a sign that i've matured even if just a littl I'm working despite the economy which is nice i'm regularly playing gigs at bars which is very fun yet losing it's..magic last concert i saw was five finger death punch Lucuna Coil Drowning pool seether hell yeah all were simply amazing... seether had a little to much distortion at the end of the show that got old... five finger was by far the best

I suppose i'm back concerts I've recently gone to past month or so... slipknot, all that remains Hurt 12 stones (in a day!) offspring all have been amazing slipknot by far the most insaine hurt was the most moving soon to be staind mudvayne black label and static-x along with 3 others another slipknot concert! cd collection is rising greatly maybe i'll give everyone a list so i can get recomendations once you know my taste. I'm far more then mainstream rock/metal..

funny guess thats a big o'l fuck you then? you never had a clue anyway

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years ago you where an unending tragedy a persistant dose of misery i hated i killed I medicated all in your name you ripped you beat you stole you cheat a shadow, a cancer, a question without an answer you where nothing and you still are your tears painfull gasps exscape cries that i love you, that i can change but you can't a belt around your kneck is the only way to keep it off your back small slits of innocence are what keeps me from falling of track the shadows that drips keeps me from talking the loss of blood keeps me from walking 10 seconds to late a life to short i hated i killed I medicated for an exscape for a box inside a hole for some tears and a rock for a ray of hope that was never lost for the one way out my only cause but i can't because of the woman crying on her bed for the blood she would spill if she found me dead for her tears that would fall on this dry earth because her face would be covered in dirt because her life was so much harder then that of my own because she's looking for love, to find a home because she thinks shes found it all in me but shes wrong, each day my heart grows more heavy because i know one day she will realize and on that day tears will fall from our eyes for the pain we fought thru and time she wasted for the false hope and dreams we never tasted and on that day i'll realize she'll be so much happier with me watching down on her from the skies

there you go...

shes so slender, so well composed her eyes glisten within our light her lips grace a cool glass bottle and her tongue dances throughout the night she has the ability to pull at my heart she doesn't hold it back she knows she has the ability to bring me to light she hasn't ever looked back her dress it flares projecting her passion she dances, beauty was never so vibrant and her hips brushes within a fraction of my body, hers shines, she has me eclipsed her body her mind she has the ability to create a part of me she doesn't hold it back she knows she has the ability to heal all of me she hasn't ever looked back her heart beats for every breathe of life she drinks it in, paints clear all the lies her colors, her sides bring on perfection i've fallen for every one of them shes cleared my eyes shes brought love gave me fire brought me hope gave me desire shes beautiful in every sence of the word her heart beats, at times for 2 every moment i'm with her i'm far over due (like i don't deserve gah clear up) every second your with me, everytime you kiss me every I love you, you miss me i'm overwhelmed & overcome in admiration, in love god blessed me with your heart i've always loved you, from the star

it takes two hearts fused together to feel free it takes your eyes staring back at me more then i could ever dream of your... it takes your hands beside of me walking a once lonly road infront of me it took a set of fingers to untie me and your constant love to guide me your... more then i could ever dream of the mistakes make me greatful that your still here with the same look in your eyes as you did the night we kissed with the same calm voice and soft hands as you where when i first messed up with the same persistent undieing love everything i could ever hope for your.... your... everything i could ever hope for

oh, the temperatures dropping by the moment oh baby we can't survive this climate the distance it's growing and weather, it won't stop snowing... how i'd like to see that smile... our breathe we can see and our eyes are getting heavy how i wish you where here how i wish youd lie next to me forever.... it's 40 degrees and my hands are shaking the winds blowing are cutting right through the house the pipes are frozen with no sign up help how i miss the glow in your eyes wrapped, it's not the same i miss your body i miss your name i miss your voice... and baby if i had a choice you wouldn't be so far away and baby if i had a chance we'd be forever someday if you saw the beat of my heart, it's pumping for you, it was from the start and baby if you saw my mind, you'd see i'd never leave you behind (again :( ) and baby if you felt my arms you'd know you'd never be harmed with intertwined hands i help out my heart with locked lips our forever, began to start a ring to remind you our future, it's real a hug and a kiss to show you i feel what you feel i'd spend forever no matter the cost stay forever no matter how long i'd fight forever even if i was ment to lose i'd give all of me even if i could choose ( i love you star

who defines crazy, what is crazy, who can understand it who can fully comprehand something they've never felt/had. it's judgement, passed on from someone elses point of view is evil is good all just based off of point of view. War, iraq war we thought was right, and i bet you the soilders fighting on both sides thought they where right. if someones willing to live and die for a point of view I'm sure they thought they were right. who was? whos going to pass that judgement, everyone will. only god knows. do we as people do things purposly because they are wrong, if you tell kids, hey if someone offers you a purple pill don't take it are they more attracted to those purple pills, would they even know therewas such a thing had we not told them. you say i am what you think, thats not reality that's reality in your mind nothing else. the judgment you pass on to someone (negative) you can't judge me, you can't judge anyone, if the only reality you know is the one in your mind you can't judge anyone but yourself. you make your own laws, the laws of society are ones that shape form and corrupt. you must make decions and choices marked by right or wrong the very basis of everything you do should be for that, not what others what not what others deem right, what you do you can't understand a world that you've never lived You can only judge yourself and if you were or are manipulated then you dont know yourself and blame others for your problems,